Update Managed to fix my insurance issue, used what money we got to cover the copay that was left, get our phones paid for another month, and get some supplies. I'm still getting calls daily from the bank and Paypal about accounts being overdrawn and threats of closing them, sending it to collections, etc, to which all I can do is cry and tell them I'm trying to find work and beg them to just give me some time, which they don't respond to except to have someone else call the next day to do it all over again. If this doesn't get filled, we're not going to have electricity soon, and even the landlord is getting tired of the excuses and waiting. Update ends
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I'm not good at asking for help, and I tend to just keep my head down and try to get by, but I've been dragging myself and a partner who isn't working through the last couple years, and last month I got fired from my job too.
I don't know what else to do. I don't fit in anywhere, and trying to find somewhere keeps getting my willingness to help abused until I retreat into depression and anxiety and self hatred. I volunteer, and get offered "jobs" where the boss decides pay is just a suggestion, or is substituted with the promise of "real work" which is always just around the corner, just trust them and hold out a couple more weeks/months/until the end of the year.
I'm still looking for work. I've had several interviews, including a couple offer letters that were rescinded after I signed them. I don't drive, and I'm having to look at places that are 2+ hour commutes each way, in jobs that are insisting I work weekends, which is the time the local bus doesn't run outside 8am to 6pm.
I hate having to do this when I know there are people worse off than me, and I feel like I don't deserve any help if I don't figure it out by myself, but I'm trying to fight those feelings and see them as the toxic BS they are. I feel so stuck right now, and it's making my brain spiral.
Anything would help. If you can donate but would prefer not to go through GFM, I'm up for other forms of aid as well, I know some people do meal kits or will order stuff for those in need to ensure funds are being used "appropriately". Just give me a DM and we can figure something out. I appreciate any assistance offered, even sharing the link in other places.
https://gofund.me/25ac374eb