Going to queer events and making new friends would be a great way to expand your support network. Depending on the size of your town, you’re probably going to run into the same people pretty often and you’ll get to know them over time.
Funnily enough, I have been to a queer event. Except then I just stood on the sidelines the entire time, always far enough away for nobody to notice I'm even there.
Yeah I know. I've already cut off ties with that friend mostly.
CW: rest of this message is infused with my brain worms around passing
I'd actually rather live with dysphoria forever and simply be dissociated and self-hating the whole time. Not because I don't think I'd be a "real woman", but because if I can't for the most part look like a cis woman, I'm STILL going to have the dysphoria, but then I'm also going to have to deal with people telling me I'm an abomination - it'd only make things worse because it would just add to the existing pain.
Then again there is basically no way for HRT to make me look worse, and I already look so fem that if I was actually trying I could probably already pass.