[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 3 points 1 day ago

When half my concentration in a given conversation goes to behaving "properly" (trying not to fidget, maintaining a hopefully appropriate amount of relaxed eye contact without staring, appearing attentive but relaxed), half goes to figuring out whether, how, when and what to contribute and I also have to listen and process the words because I occasionally struggle with understanding spoken language... yeah, sure, I may seem normal, but something somewhere is gonna drop off the radar.

Whether I say something appropriate or hit the right timing to chime in without either interrupting or being too late becomes (even more of) a gamble, which stresses me out and causes anxiety, further taking away focus and composure. Alternatively, I become quiet and feel more like an observer on the sidelines than a part of the conversation, isolated by my own struggles. Or I blunder and say something wrong and retreat to that isolation in shame. Or I don't really hear what you're saying, lose track of the conversation, am caught off-guard by the odd question cast my way, or simply retreat from trying to contribute because I don't even know what we're talking about, back into the same isolation.

I'm a chatty person. But I'm scared to chat with most people. Doing so leaves me either mentally or emotionally drained and upset. I hide away, retreat to the internet where I can better regulate my participation, make excuses not to attend company events, let social contacts slip away because maintaining them is too much stress, struggle to make doctor's appointments or call for a med refill...

If you think I seem normal - thanks for the compliment, I worked really hard on that facade. I'm glad it's working.

But inside, I die a little each time.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 4 points 1 day ago

That's grotesque and you have my condolences

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 2 points 1 day ago

That's an awful idea and you are an awful person for suggesting it.

...and I am an awful person for considering the idea

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 2 points 1 day ago

It's like talking about powers and saying "The square of 4 is 16" and they'll bleat "Actually, a square is a shape" and you're trying to find a way to tell them that their contribution is absolutely worthless and irrelevant to the topic.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 14 points 2 days ago

Conservatism consists of exactly one proposition, to wit: There must be in-groups whom the law protects but does not bind, alongside out-groups whom the law binds but does not protect.

In this case, the law being freedom of speech, the protection being to say what they want and the binding being to prohibit others from curtailing that. Naturally, the push for inclusive language is part of a movement to curtail that freedom and needs to be reversed and pushed back against.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 5 points 2 days ago* (last edited 2 days ago)

Well, you have no choice but to acknowledge it. I'm perfectly capable of pretending it doesn't exist because it doesn't negatively affect me.

(That's sarcasm, if it wasn't clear. I hate that there are people genuinely living by that maxim.)

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 4 points 4 days ago

And if I don't know the song at all?

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 2 points 4 days ago

I thought so too, hence my earlier cheap labour assumption. I was hoping exaggerating the opposite would bait them into correcting me (obviously still justified á la "At least they had an income"), but it doesn't seem like they fell for it. Still, those euphemisms and weasel words didn't quite scream "honest and forthcoming" to me.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 4 points 6 days ago

Actually, compared to the US at least, we do get decent comp. I believe the meme spawned from that one incident was more along the lines "We want Pizza Parties" because we've got the rest already.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 19 points 6 days ago

all not of legal status

Ah, you used cheap labour from undocumented workers and it came back to bite you? There goes my sympathy.

As for the science, there are studies to suggest measures like shelter-in-place had an impact, and the fact that literally every form of mask reduces risk of transmission at least slightly has been established long before the nature of viral infections was understood. You could easily find these things online or through a university library, given how scientifically versed you are. But I suspect you'd cherry-pick the ones you like anyway, so why bother?

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 8 points 6 days ago

gets shown some facts about masks and propaganda

"I am person that likes to think for myself and actually look at facts not propaganda"


That aside, the way small businesses were left hanging was definitely a political failure. I don't know what business you have or why you had to fire people, but I'll happily blame a lack of compensation for businesses that can't operate.

[-] luciferofastora@lemmy.zip 7 points 6 days ago

Rich people spend much more money than I do and yet they're fine, so clearly the spending of the money isn't actually the problem.

I'm going to go ahead and appropriate that for liberal use. "Used liberally", that is, not "used for Liberal politics".

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submitted 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) by luciferofastora@lemmy.zip to c/linuxquestions@lemmy.zip

My use case is splitting audio into separate channels in OBS for Twitch Streams so I can play music live without getting my VoDs struck. If my approach is entirely wrong for the use case, I'm happy to scrap the whole thing and sign it off as learning experience.

My solution is to use virtual sinks that I record through Audio Sources in OBS. I've got two loopback-devices (config at the end) with media.class = Audio/Sink, assign my playback streams to the relevant output capture.
The loopback of each is then passed on to the common default (physical) output device, namely my headphones.
So far, this has been working great for me, aside from minor inconveniences:

The first is that I want certain apps or playback streams to automatically be assigned to the capture sinks upon starting the app.
I had a working pulseaudio¹ setup on Ubuntu where I used pavucontrol to set the output once per app and it remembered that setting. Every time I opened that app, it would direct its playback streams to that sink.
I migrated to Nobara and opted to try configuring pipewire (directly)² instead. The devices are created correctly but every time I (re-)start a relevant app I have to go set its capture device again.

The second is that occasionaly upon logging in, one loopback stream will initially be passed to the other sink instead of the default output, which resolves upon restarting pipewire³. Is something wrong with my config?
Both have the same target.object and restarting it fixes it, so I'm guessing it may be some race condition thing where the alsa_output isn't initialised at startup yet, but I don't know how to diagnose or fix that


1: I have since learned that apparently it's actually still pipewire parsing that config, but the point is I configured it through ~/.config/pulse/default.pa

2: ~/config/pipewire/pipewire.conf.d/default-devices.conf

3: Trying to set it in pavucontrol doesn't work and keeps resetting that playback's output to the given sink if I try to select the correct capture device. Repatching them in Helvum does the job, but then pavucontrol just shows blank for the device (doesn't interfere with controlling the volume, but maybe it's relevant for diagnosing)


My current ~/.config/pipewire/pipewire.conf.d/default-devices.conf:

context.modules = [
    {   name = libpipewire-module-loopback
        args = {
            audio.position = [ FL FR ]
            capture.props = {
                media.class = Audio/Sink
                node.name = vod_sink
                node.description = "Sink for VoD Audio"
            }
            playback.props = {
                node.name = "vod_sink.output"
                node.description = "VoD Audio"
                node.passive = true
                target.object = "alsa_output.pci-0000_00_1b.0.analog-stereo"
            }
        }
    }
    {   name = libpipewire-module-loopback
        args = {
            audio.position = [ FL FR ]
            capture.props = {
                media.class = Audio/Sink
                node.name = live_sink
                node.description = "Sink for Live-Only Audio"
            }
            playback.props = {
                node.name = "live_sink.output"
                node.description = "Live-Only Audio"
                node.passive = true
                target.object = "alsa_output.pci-0000_00_1b.0.analog-stereo"
            }
        }
    }    
]
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