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Noodlers ink btw.

Doing more writing by hand lately and was looking at some new ink. Now I've got to find other achivist ink cause I'm sure as hell not giving money to someone who dogwhistles about "western civilisation" and brands with that racist's flag from the usa.

Sigh. I just liked the green.

Feel like shit. It was banker phone scam. I havent told my parents yet but I will need to because I opened a loan under their influence and I havent a job yet so they will need to pay for it. Im devastated. But I gotta hunker down now and keep moving forward. Im so ashamed, i cant eat, I cant sleep.

Back on the wagon again, hit 24 hours earlier today. But besides not vaping I just can't believe the heat. I'm naked in my house and I've had the ac on since this morning and it's like once the sun hits around 2 pm the house just cooks, it's so bad.

UGH

And it makes sleeping so miserable too even with the fan on me.

Made the mistake of browsing Reddit at work and I see a thread where OP points out that the google overview lists Napoleon as “king of Italy.” Cue to all the comments calling OP an idiot because “technically he was!” So we’re gonna introduce Napoleon as “king of Italy” now without even mentioning France? Redditors love a technicality.

I have a job interview in about two hours. It's for a seasonal position with my apartment complex, to help with all the students moving in and out. I live in off-campus apartments built for students but can be rented by whomever, as long as you don't have kids, I think.

I desperately need a second job. I am obviously going to take this position if it is offered to me, and I don't see any reason it won't be.

The question comes from this: At the end of the season, in about two months, they offer some of the seasonal people full-time positions. Truth be told, regardless of the general opinions here, I will probably pursue that job pretty aggressively. It should pay better than my current grocery store job, and I believe there may be a discount on rent for full-timers.

In the event I'm offered the job and take it, I would be officially working for a sizeable corporate landlord. I obviously have serious ethical issues with this premise. That said, we do all have to exist within this capitalist hellscape they've created for us, so I don't think me making $16 an hour or something showing people apartments and leases and such really puts me in a position to be morally compromised. But it does put me uncomfortably close to it, in a way.

I don't know. I am not a theory or moral wiz kid like some of my wonderful comrades here. And as I said, this really is more for opinions than actionable advice. I am not in an economic position to be turning down just about anything on moral grounds. I'm not going to be a cop or sell crack (I'd much rather sell crack), but I also can't be high and mighty, turning down good jobs just because I don't like how they make their money. Chances are that will apply to any company I could work for. Hell, my current employer is Publix, a large grocery chain with anti-union and anti-competition practices, who - you guessed it! - also does real estate. I don't know if they do residential or just commercial, though. So I'm fucked no matter what xD

I guess this is just a place to discuss working for employers who you are ethically opposed to, your opinions on the matter, and how you cope.

Wish me luck! Interview is at 1:30pm EST, so in 1.5 hours. I'm pretty confident given this is a seasonal position. The only issue would be a drug test, but I'd only pop for weed and I just haven't been able to afford to get my card renewed (I'm up for the full process, not the re-cert). I'm sure I can navigate that at the time, should I need to.

I’m horrible at explaining myself so I’ll keep it short. It was an emergency protest in response to Palestine action being branded as terrorists. Loved the energy, was handed fruit, and a mask, however some got in and tackled some of the protestors and we crowded around them yelling out shame on you. I only took one photo and nothing else, kept my phone off, kept distance from the police and joined in the chants

thanks for listening lol (context on why I made this https://hexbear.net/post/5347454)

It wouldn't be so bad but I literally need these for work. The metro closes at midnight and Im often working past those hours to cover owl shifts.

I now have to walk everywhere, watch what duty I get because im on the "Extra board", and beg the agency for a ride if they have me work in another yard.

Im angry and sad, mostly sad.

Just sucks wanting to/actually hanging out with someone 1 on 1 and there's silence and I worry they aren't having a good time with me. Then we bring another person in and everyone is talking a lot more and seem more comfortable. Why am I weird alone with people :/ tbh makes me very worried about dating or being in a relationship too. Even in a platonic friendship it makes me feel very anxious about what they think of me and our relationship. Like idk I like you I just don't have much to say but then suddenly do when there's more people?? I don't get it so how is anyone else going to

inb4 autism

I honestly don’t have the words. I’m talking about someone with just over 100K followers who recently discovered that there aren’t many avenues to put an end to this, considering the fact that AI is completely unregulated and probably will continue to be for the foreseeable future.

Personally, I’ve been contemplating making myself perceptible to those online in some form because I’m envious of the people who have done so and enjoyed some sense of community in return, but I think it’s over.

It was 2 AM, I was watching Nathan Fielder on YouTube and then I heard these.. noises, it sounded like someone (or something) was crawling on the walls inside my bathroom, or bøttekott. When I reluctantly went to investigate it became clear to me that the sound was coming from outside the door of my apartment, someone was trying to pick my lock, rattling the handle and stuff.

After minutes of just kinda walking in circles, I got a pair of pants from my pile of unwashed clothes and put them on. I gently knocked on the inside of my door «Hallo?», I heard a frustrated «Ja..», it was a feminine ja. I asked her what she was doing and opened the door, she quickly closed it and shouted «Nei!». I felt guilty, was I not supposed to do that? Maybe she was doing something important like shitting or something idk. I wanted to be respectful of her business so I waited a bit then asked if she was done before I opened the door again. I saw the number above the elevator decrement, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Then I took my pants back off and started writing this shit.

Anyways, that was really scare guys :( :( :( I peed

Post your favorite liberal arts&craft cliches. I'll start with the one I'm partial to.

Without fail, some PMC or boring white guy will rock up with a sign like:

"this is literally the last thing I want to be doing. I am an endless well of lethargy, a monument to near-total apathy. Alas, the incompetence of those in charge has forced even my refined detachment into the streets. So here I stand, spiritually degraded, holding this sign like some kind of activist, a word that, until now, I associated with some kind of transient tempter of the youth. Can we hurry this up? every second spent protesting is a grotesque violation of my sacred right to passive despair, but alas, here we are, because apparently, even my cynicism has limits. Enjoy my grudging presence, you exhausting idealists."

trash shitshow next door.

I have nothing against the woman living with him since I'm an addict myself, but the people that show up over there at like night, idk sketchy shit. The other day I saw someone leaving and it was a carful of people tweaking out and fighting, like actually trading blows, in the car then it speeded off .

My neighbor, the dude, is an old drunk who I honestly think has wet brain and he tries to talk to me whenever I'm outside doing something. In the brief exchanges we've had (since I always pretend I'm busy and can't talk) he's talked about how much he hates "mexicans" and that he's got a raccoon (?) problem, I think? The guy is wildly incoherent since he's always hammered.

ANYWAY, I live in a "good" neighborhood and yet here you go, good honest white people being shitty folks. I'll take those "mexicans" any day over you losers.

Seen on reddit. Someone asked: "What happens after the welfare cuts? I feel this has not been thought through properly. There are currently over 1.6 million people actively looking for work, and around 736,000 jobs available."

Another redditor responded: "*I work in a job centre.

We are openly told by line managers there is no plan. The reforms will mean many people lose out directly (their PIP is cut), but also indirectly (carers of people with PIP are entitled to an additional rate on UC).

The main things we are being trained for is an increase in 6PP situations (suicidal claimants) and additional training on managing those with severe health conditions whilst on UC.

The Work Capability Assessment system is expected to totally collapse immediately after the reforms are implemented due to demand as people denied PIP scramble to get LCWRA classification.

Even the harshest people on my team see it as a disasterous act of cruelty, as someone put it "saying the quiet part out loud."*

What is the government hoping will happen? There aren't enough jobs already. Do they hope everyone just kills themselves? Or turns to crime like mugging and shoplifting?

No wonder the UK is the second most miserable country on earth: https://economictimes.indiatimes.com/nri/latest-updates/uk-is-officially-the-worlds-second-most-miserable-country-these-were-the-happiest-and-unhappiest-countries-of-2023/articleshow/108361220.cms?from=mdr

So I have a large rat on my left arm, elbow to shoulder, and i want to turn it into a half sleeve with a burning city in the background. Grey scale with flame highlights.

But I can't decide what city or what type of buildings. My first thought was generic modern sky scrapers. Now I'm leaning maybe towards symbols of empires throughout the world and history. Like a japanese castle, an Aztec temple , the Parthenon and of course the statue of liberty, not sure what else. Any suggestions for specific buildings or imperial styles?

Well, obviously I'm not currently in receipt of it due to my appeal, but still. When I first started claiming, people were often rude and insulting towards me because of it, but as my illness progressed and I pretty much withdrew from the world, I thought at least I wouldn't have to listen to it any more. But today I'm even getting it at home from my landlady.

She gave her daughter £20K for a house deposit last year. She couldn't afford it, she put it on a credit card, at least most of it. Now she's in debt and complains about it constantly. She sucks up to her daughter and then takes her frustrations out on me. Just now she was on the phone to her daughter, and her daughter was telling her about how she has a holiday planned, after just coming back from abroad, and has just bought a new expensive bike, and been out partying, etc, all kinds of expensive things. And my landlady was cooing "Ooh how lovely!" and acting all nice about it.

As soon as she got off the phone, she started angrily having a go at me, saying when my benefits are reinstated and I've paid off the rent debt that's racking up, she's putting my rent up by 50% as she needs the money. I didn't feel this was fair and said it's not my fault she's in debt, she shouldn't have given her daughter £20K if she couldn't afford it. She started yelling, "She needs a house, and she works for her money! You don't even work for yours!"

And talking about how it's her money anyway as she used to be a taxpayer and my benefits come out of taxes. Well, I used to be a taxpayer too before becoming disabled.

It sounds pathetic but I feel like crying now. I've got no-one to talk to in real life. I haven't spoken to anyone but my horrid landlady, medical staff and delivery drivers in years. It just drives home that everyone from the DWP to the government to the general public thinks I'm undeserving of even the basic necessities of life and a burden to everyone. They act like benefit claimants are living it up, having a wonderful time, when the reality is reassessments on average every 2 years for me, appeals, and having to beg for every little thing.

If it wasn't for this site I would have ended it by now, this is the only place I have for friendship, emotional support and financial help. But even here I have to repost over and over on mutual aid when I need something, wondering if I'll be able to get the things I need. And forget ever having anything just for fun or pleasure, or to make life worthwhile, that's a distant dream. I try to convince myself that I'll get my benefits reinstated and then I'll be able to do the online art course I want to take and join the Order of Druids, but in reality who knows if I'll win my appeal or if I'll even by able to do anything after a 50% rent increase.

I don't understand why they won't just legalise assisted suicide for the disabled, nobody wants us anyway. And I hate those stupid cancer adverts for macmillan and cancer research, showing cancer patients surrounded by caring loved ones, showered with support and given all the help they need. It's not like that at all. At first people are shocked by your diagnosis and sympathetic but as your illness wears on and you get worse people get tired of you and can't be bothered with you any more. The country doesn't want to pay for you, the NHS waiting list is a million years long so your condition ends up worse than it had to be, and everyone treats you like scum because you don't work any more.

And I get blamed for my landlady's debt, just like the disabled in general get blamed for the country's debt. The disabled are accused of bankrupting the country with the benefits bill while MPs give themselves a payrise. I get told my benefits aren't my money anyway and that I'll have to pay more while my landlady almost bankrupted herself by giving her daughter a house deposit and wasting a fortune on horses and her estranged husband's nonsense (don't even get me started on that, it's an absolutely infuriating story.)

The daughter might work for her money but she also has a life, fun, holidays, family and friends. They act like I'm so lucky I get "free money" from other people, but what has that cost me? It's cost my life - I have nothing worthwhile, no fun, no friends, no freedom and nothing to look forward to. And everyone treats me like something they found on the bottom of their shoe - I have no other use to society so I might as well be used as society's punchbag.

I try so hard to find things to live for but at moments like this I wonder why I even bother.

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/5319202

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/5319167

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/5319116

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/5316405

Hello comrades,

Four months ago, I joined this space in search of hope and many of you truly changed our lives. When I first posted about the danger we faced as trans refugees in Gorom Camp, you responded with kindness, care, and solidarity.

But today, on World Refugee Day, that hope was violently shaken.

This morning, the host community and others launched a serious attack. Our shelters were burned down. We fled with nothing. Two of my sisters were injured in the chaos.

We are now in hiding. We’re exhausted. We’re terrified. But we’re still here.

I'm sharing video footage of what happened today not to shock, but because we need you to see our reality.

We need urgent mutual aid to help us relocate to a safer place.

Our mutual aid link will be in the comments.

Thank you for any support donation, share, or boost. 💙🏳️‍⚧️

My paycheck did not deposit. My employer has asked for an additional week to pay me for this week in addition to next weeks wages. He also informed me he will pay me an additional weeks pay if I will stay on. My first phone calls were to the other plumbers at the shop. They didn't get paid either. They intend to sit it out and see what happens. This is their first time dealing with a negligent employer. I know better. The owner of the shop showed up to work this past Monday with another quad cab GMC Sierra Denali, a 90k truck.

My next two phone calls were to the general contractors I am to meet this morning to go over change orders and arrange heavy equipment for excavating, and inform them I am no longer in my current job and they will need to call the (former) office to get it sorted. I do not replace pipes that transfer shit and other human waste for funsies.

Looks like it's a three day weekend instead. Time to get my posting numbers up. Monday I'll be calling other plumbers to see if there's a spot available elsewhere.

Well where has sobriety taken me recently?

At work, I got an item on the upcoming fall menu. My boss ended up putting his own version of the recipe up for it, but my idea still got used, so I thought that was pretty fuckin cool. I'm also now dependable enough to get a fuckton of extra hours. I was already one of the best workers here, even when I was constantly hungover and withdrawaling, but now that I can consistently show up to shifts I'm allowed to work whatever shifts I want to. I'm gonna get overtime for the first time in forever this week

As far as home life goes, being at sober living is still awful, but I got back on the dating apps this past couple weeks and it's going really well. I've just been open about being in recovery and most of the people I talk to just think it's cool that I'm actually working on myself like that. Got some people I'm talking to more casually and a couple that I'm interested in making something happen long term with.

Medically, things are better than ever. I've only had 1 seizure since I've been sober and on seizure meds and I'm being seen by a neurologist now. I also have my appointment to start hormones next month! I can no longer help people with DIY like I used to because sober living, but I'm helping other people get it started up to replace me and that's really cool. Not that it's particularly hard to do, but having someone show you how to do it helps.

How are y'all today? :)

It was 15 bean soup and I was look oh hee hee hoo hoo what if I sipped on the dried bean water. Forgot it had kidney beans. Might explode out the ass later. Wish me luck

PSA about kidney bean poisoning I guess

I've decided I want to become a Druid, if I win my benefit appeal I'm going to join the Order of bards, Ovates and Druids. Their chief wrote this essay on Druidism and politics, which I thought some here might find interesting. It's leftist:

https://philipcarr-gomm.com/essay/druidry-politics/

Has anyone ever woken up and decided to drop their klan robes and become a Marxist? Or quit the SS and a year later joining worker picket lines?

If Donny Dealz does drag us into another war in the middle east, is that the death of MAGA or will the chuds triple down and say this is 4D3D3D3D Chess and refill your popcorn bucket because any second now white people will rule the world again?

It was horrible but not nearly as horrible as I was led to believe. Too bad we dont do laughing gas here, its only syringe anesthesia

so many companies have no sort of actual user support anymore, they make you message them on twitter, instagram, facebook etc. i've even seen companies direct customer service to threads, and i don't even think anyone uses threads.

for my case, i barely play battlefield. about a year and a half ago i found myself suddenly unable to join BoB community servers, i assumed it's cause i was trolling some maga guy in the text chat and was banned for that. i figured whatever and since have been playing on the official DICE servers. a few nights ago i decided to play again for the first time in a few months and i found not only am i banned from the BoB servers, i'm banned from all the community servers. i found out there's something that tracks reasons for battlefield bans, so i look myself up on that, and i was banned for being reported for cheating. the support for this claim is that with the lewis gun 78% of my kills are headshots. but all in all i have like a 15% accuracy rate. i have no clue how that seems suspicious, but the user support to deal with this is, i had to join the BFban discord server, and "make a ticket", and each message takes several days before i get a reply. and how do you even prove you didn't do something?

what kind of user experience is this? i paid money for a game, some random person falsely reported me for some shit, and now my experience is completely fucked because i can only play in official servers which ARE full of cheaters.

wondering what anyone else's worst customer/user experience has been in this new level of capitalist hell where you don't actually own anything and can't actually use anything you pay for?