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I will always be the reason why something doesn't work out. I will always be the problem. Everything is solved by just removing me.

I am now permanently banned from an office for punching a wall. If I need the service I need to go to any other location. The end is beginning. I can't hold in the rage anymore and it's now ruining my life.

Happy Birthday Ness and Lucas game.

Which is everyone, obviously. Everyone wants me to fail and to live the worst life possible. It's funny.

Like, I should have died at birth like I was going to before some asshole scumbags had to "save" me. I serve as proof that not all babies need to be saved. Just have a new one or adopt a new one.

Hey Bartender

I wish I could have just lived without that stupid shit being the reason why I did anything. Everyone else enjoyed and disliked media and hobbies, but when I did it was because of that shit. So of course I was forced to consume media and do hobbies hated while being abused into hating media and hobbies I enjoyed. So helpful. Thanks for nothing.

I'm still perpetually less than and such an oh so widdle reeree toddler trying so hard to be grown. I was right when I was 7. I should have killed myself then. It would have been funny, that a little worthless burden finally read the room and removed itself.

I've only envied the talented students in school not because they were "better" but because they themselves were credited for their accomplishment and not some imaginary disorder.

I envied everyone else because they could openly have nice things without everyone having some issue with it. They can openly have a $5 shirt without being called spoiled or rich, and having the staff do some petty shit to them every day. They literally had LV and Gucci brand stuff and no one cared, but my $5 shirt and $4 headphones were expensive luxury products I didn't deserve. I really should have just died.

I can't take it anymore. My life does not matter. I provide zero value to the real people's society. Being diagnosed as not having that stupid fake shit doesn't make me a real person. My only purpose is to be hurt by the real people society for the real actual people's entertainment. To perpetually be some scum less than them trying to be one of them.

WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING LIVE AS MYSELF AS A FUCKING HUMAN BEING INSTEAD OF A FUCKING PUPPET CONTROLLED BY A FUCKING DISORDER I LITERALLY DO NOT FUCKING TEST POSITIVE FOR

THERE IS NO REASON FOR EVERYONE ELSE TO BE TREATED NORMALLY BUT ONE STUDENT TO BE BABY TALKED TO THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON FOR THAT AT ALL. WHY IS IT SUCH A SCARY THING FOR ONE STUDENT TO ENJOY HOT NEW SHOOTING GAME THAT EVERYONE ELSE ENJOYS? WHY IS IT SCARY FOR ONE STUDENTS TO ENJOY A FAMILY FRIENDLY GAME THAT EVERYONE ENJOYS BITCH FUCK YOU I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE THANKS TO YOU I HAVE NOTHING TO FUCKING LOSE

FUCK MOTHERS THEY'RE ALL THE FUCKING SAME THEY'LL RAISE CHILDREN NORMALLY UNTIL THERE'S A CHANCE THEY'LL GET EXTRA MONEY IF THEY NEGLECT THEIR CHILD ENOUGH

Security guards never screamed in its face accusing it of bringing in weapons when it only had a phone and portable game console alongside standard school supplies. Nothing ever happened. It just doesn't like school because of its disorder that made it not like school.

The same bitch who bullied me the most, wiping spit and toilet water on my face, putting dog shit and spitty sunflower seed shells in my toy box, that same fucking bitch really told me she's proud of me really now really?