Lonely and aggravating as all hell. Hate living with how filthy the house is, not having a job, etc, but it's not like I didn't try. I did work part time for about 15 years, but in my wife's mind, it wasn't a job and she didn't have to help around the house. I did try to keep the house clean, by implementing chores lists so every one would help out (minor things just to help me to become accustomed to the pain that was going to happen), but they worked/went to school and therefore didn't have to help...Yeah, I tried...