You sound sad for sure but at the same time you come off as a strong person. With all that sadness in your life you are still getting up and facing the world almost every day. We are all in the hamster wheel race my friend! Keep your head up!

The slog is real as fuck. Part of it is your brain being rude and using the depression to make you feel worse. Part of it is the very real problem of shit sucking and being difficult. So remember - you aren't making a mountain out of a molehill. But your brain still isn't making an accurate assessment. It's a helluva dichotomy and I don't have advice other than to keep up with any medication or therapy you've been doing. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. And remember that the world might kinda suck but you, personally, are loved, and this shit isn't your fault or your responsibility to solve on your own.

You should make a big pot of soup. Soup is delicious and it's practically medicinal when the weather is cold and grim.

Yes... all the time. You aren't alone. If you ever need anyone, my dms are always open to anyone who just needs someone to talk to

definitely know how you feel, depression is a fuck but remember also life is a gift even when it doesn't feel like it is

I flip flop. One moment exactly what's the point it's all the same dead boring shit.

Then the next I've got 5 hobbies I simply must get going on and oh where will I find the time... It's all so exciting and urgent.

Then they are all pointless again.

Thankfully feeling good at the moment but we'll see how that lasts. Probably about half way through doing one of these hobbies.

could be worse, at least you are one of the coolest dog breeds!

Seasonal affective disorder exacerbates all this kind of stuff, to keep you warm

Seasonal affective disorder exacerbates all this kind of stuff, to keep you warm

I feel similarly. I don't know how to affect any change in my own life anymore. I'm sorry. I hope things get better for both of us going forward.