Never? that is so sad. But yea without that I see why maybe you wouldn't...

No that's fine I knew I might not have been clear when I posted but couldn't think of how to fix. And yea I know.

You'll have to keep us posted on how you are doing I am so glad you have them to support you.

self ID just comes first

It kind of hurts me that I'm a trans person who doesn't get this.

We create this language for ourselves, to talk about things cissies have no words for, and want us to have no words for, and that means the use of queer labels is always something highly personal and subjective.

This is very touching to me

Yea it really can be I will try not to.

I see that, I should post more of these as they come to mind.

No help/knowledge really hurts, same here.

You're doing good

Thanks I'm trying really hard

I was (mostly) joking.

you really do win and lose some, I relate to that.

You better not die of chronic pain though

Labels are so hard to understand though

Idk how that's going

But that does sound so cool.

I wondered if that's how you would react. I should, I feel like a lot of things would make sense within that framework (like getting over stimulated/burned out)

im so lucky

I remember enough of your posts to know you aren't that lucky (okay but now that I'm thinking about your wife you might actually be lucky)

Even if the rest of me was hairless that still sounds worth it.

I am a bad feminist and I will not comprise on this issue (but whatever works best for you is great)

Once again, s stay losing, I should know.

But I will still go back and collect everything at some point, I loved chapters 1-7 too much to not play all the content.

Do it, this is literally the best feeling ever. I'm normally dysphoric about my stomach but it feels and looks so much better now. % worth it.

I had just pulled up the Gender Accelerationist Manifesto, I will add the gender outlaw to my reading list (yes I read theory, no not marx). I hope I can get less stressed the thoughts they don't stop

I once again did not explain myself well. I understand why someone would be upset now, but that was not my first thought. I had never considered calling it anything else.

So I knew nodding was masc, but I did not realize a small wave was femme. I have now made a mental note to start giving people small waves . I have definitely thought about the label non binary woman, but it is too confusing for me to really explain. But yes I could totally see autistic people doing that.

No none of it makes sense I am done with it all. Sounds like I might be over thinking it though.

Its not goin, I haven't said anything about it. I do wonder if autism would fit me better then avpd though. I should get my therapist to explain the difference.

I cannot properly express my levels of gender envy.

So I'm really starting to wonder if I have autism, and I think you might see why.

Is there anything (book, youtube video, anything) on like... social norms for women/trans women? I have spent my entire life analyzing how I need to act as a guy and now I'm really struggling to understand where the boundaries are and what's expected of me. Some examples:

talking about genitals

I didn't know some no op trans women would want their genitals referred to as a clit, and that didn't even enter my mind as an option. What if I had said/done something that upset someone? (I call it a penis, she tries to correct me, and I don't understand and think too literally about it.) And like, if you're going to say "oh well how would you feel about someone doing X thing" this would never have come to my thought process. I never would have considered someone calling my penis anything else? Why would I be upset by that? And apparently a penis is different then a dick/cock? Its confusing and I don't want there to be more out there like this where I end up upsetting someone

Can I say I have a stupid girl brain in a jokey kind of way? I feel like I've heard some people say that about themselves, but I also feel like maybe people would see that negatively.

Literally what is up with calling people girls vs women. I am so confused

And like... expectations and how people will perceive me. I just don't understand and keep thinking but getting no where