I am grateful that you have found things that bring you peace.
Unfortunately ADHD is in my mix, I am a serial hobby abandoner. Scuba diving, guitar, synth, piano, glass work, neon bending, painting, drawing, 3d modeling, fly tieing, I could go on. Nothing ever sticks or even feels like it moves the needle.
I've been in and out of therapy for almost 30 years now, CBT, EMDR, Neurofeedback, DBT, psychodynamic, I'm sure I can't remember more. Have been seen by doctors from coast to coast here in the US.
My frustration is that everyone keeps telling me to keep trying. What's left? I've asked about ECT, but my nobody wants to take a risk with my cluster of issues. They won't even entertain a lobotomy.
At this point I'm on a handful of bullshit, including ketamine and psilocybin, just trying to alleviate something. All I get is two brief periods a week where it's not crushing, but I'm too out of it to really enjoy it.
I appreciate the advice, I've been trying. I really have.
I have, all kinds of therapies over nearly 30 years, and with doctors and therapists from coast to coast in the US.
I've yet to find a therapist that helps. I've had some that I didn't like, and moved on, but even the good ones haven't been helpful.