Tweekerz

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[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 2 points 4 hours ago* (last edited 4 hours ago)
 

ok, so i'm generally kind to everything and everyone, but bugs, slugs, snails, etc. really bother me. i have intrusive thoughts and i really get the urge to kill these things and have in the past because i hate them. i'm scared that this is going to be the sign of a future serial killer because i also have the urge to kill and destroy things but i don't. it's not often i get the urge, but when i don't like something, i absolutely will lol

 

of course, i need help, not for someone who can say definitely, because only i can.

ok, so i'm born female, but i don't identify as such. honestly, i think i align myself somewhere on the "man" part of the spectrum, but i feel very "soft" and "tender", i guess that means i don't feel a sense of hypermasculinity or a strong sense of gender.

part of me seems to be male aligned and the other part just feels soft like i say, no specific gender. rather, i'd say a gender but not one that counts as male or female. since i can't express my gender, i say i'm just me, but i do get curious what gender i would count as. i'm just me in the end, but still.

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 4 hours ago

good! i'm the new alter lol, i've been fronting a lot

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 1 day ago

honestly, probably. i don't know why i didn't, i was 14-15.

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 2 days ago (2 children)

i meant at our school, we couldn't

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 17 points 2 days ago

agreed, i love tesseract

 

i know you've all heard it before, but i didn't catch up, i was honestly a bit surprised when i was browsing and tesseract on dubvee shut down.

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 3 points 2 days ago

if i do, i'm insomniac, so i wouldn't snore much

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 2 days ago

thank you so much!!! i'm calmer now

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 days ago

i’m 18 and yeah, i will definitely talk to someone, thanks. i feel this way because i must have done something wrong to have these thoughts and it’s like i feel a demon

 

i feel like satan or some demon is inside me like i said. i must repent. i must pay for my sins. i must make an offering to the lord. idk why i feel this way. 😭

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 2 points 3 days ago (4 children)

that’s fair. we did it as young teens because we couldn’t say “rape” but i get that it’s disrespectful

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 days ago

ohhh i get itttt

 

i remember my friends and i would say "he repented her" instead of sexual assault/rape because it was "lighter", and because some places like school may have banned the word.

[–] Tweekerz@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 days ago

however "old-timey" the example i gave was

 

i'm genuinely starting to believe that some sort of demon or satan himself is inside me. i know it's not real and i should get help, which i am getting, but i just needed some comfort or perhaps anecdotes. no criticism please and i don't think i need advice, i'm getting help and i will talk to someone. it feels like a demon is giving me urges to say mean things i normally wouldnt say. i'm crazy aren't i?

i just need comfort or perhaps someone share similar experiences.

 

like i want to answer but i also just feel like staring and peeking through the little door window because people…

 
 

i tend to say "YAYY" a lot when something good happens, if that counts, but i say it like a lot.

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