[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 19 points 10 months ago

I'm probably leaving regardless unfortunately. this place, whole far better than the rest of lemmy, is way too cynical for my tastes. at least on reddit I got to escape the negativity of the world, on here I'm just constantly being reminded of it in every single news/politics/tech/science thread.

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 47 points 10 months ago

I feel like I'm being gaslit into thinking there's this huge outbreak of antisemitism when all I'm ever reading about is Muslims being murdered?? why are we constantly talking about antisemitism and only antisemitism

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Wig advice? (beehaw.org)
submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

I'm looking into purchasing a wig (Ive had human pattern baldness since age 20 unfortunately) and I'm feeling a taaaaad overwhelmed with the amount of options and I'm terrified of ordering one and it's low quality.

I wanna spend the money to get something human hair, lace front, and dark dark brown — but not super super expensive ! that said do you girls have any site recommendations or general advice?

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 18 points 11 months ago

hmm i think we need twelve more articles on this

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 54 points 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago)

big published reviews don't mean anything to me and I'm surprised they do to most people. everything is an 8-10 out of 10. how do people not find an issue with that

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 31 points 11 months ago

I agree it was very boring and the writing in the intro was incredibly weak. Every time I expected that wow moment (helgen, opening the vault) i just found disappointment instead. "Wow a fight! oh I'm just randomly handed a ship? ok sick time to fly, oh it's just fast travel. New Atlantis is about to be crazy, oh it's just a bland city" and everything being beige didn't help. Fallout has the cool roleplaying in the wasteland factor, Skyrim has the cool fantasy aspect, Starfield seemed to just be 'space' but other games (Mass Effect, Outer Wilds, hell even the first half of The Outer Worlds) did it better.

It seemed p clear they don't feel the need to innovate or have any ambition because their dedicated fan base is so large now that they don't really have to. Which is fine but wasn't for me.

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 55 points 11 months ago

what lol — he doesn't like starfield so that immediately means he doesn't like science fiction games??

I'm a huge scifi and fantasy fan and I refunded starfield after 4-5 hrs

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 22 points 11 months ago

I'm getting so so tired of these "AI/ML bad, world is doom" articles being posted multiple times a day. who is funding these narratives??

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[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 42 points 1 year ago

normies is cringe. reminds me of way back when it started to become more socially acceptable to be nerdy and people got mad about it

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

i started hormones on thursday (yayy!) and wrote this poem today, wanted to share and it and dont really have anyone to share it with lol. note im not a professional poet i just do it for fun :x hope its understandable/someone can relate.

"Song of the Mirror's Siren"

the glow of some creators light
casts a bright blue hue across my small apartment.
the chatter of the finches and the crisp of the air
stands in disagreement with the fog that seems to live
eternally somewhere, before the world,
but at the forefront of my hazel eyes -
a protection from the hurt and anguish of living,
but cursed as all matters gifted from hell,
feral enough to assault all things joyful and loved.

somewhere deep within the fog, a string appears to pull me,
trance-like, into the routine of morning,
where i find myself preparing for day
with body washed and teeth brushed.
a mirror stands above the faucet porcelain,
forming window into the depths of hatred itself,
where sirens sing songs of vanity and sin.

a struggle to keep my eyes at bay,
i glance into the mirror, horror struck,
as eyes meet with a stranger.
he beckons out for help, but sings another's name -
a name whose song is so familiar,
but a name that isn't mine.

his voice seems to penetrate outward from the mirror,
calling through the fog as a lighthouse does a ship,
blurring the line between metaphor and life.
the melody arouses chaos within my soul,
a contradiction between face and heart begins to form,
and just as the ship turns starboard toward the light,
i feel the string grow tighter, pulling me nearer.

inches from the stranger now, i gaze into his eyes
and see reflected an image of ship cast into rocky shores,
of a life lived long and truthless.
terrified at the horrors seen, i stumble back from the mirror,
collapsing onto the frigid tile,
the string snapping,
and the fog escaping the room with such calamity
as to whisk the siren back into the hell of which he came.

a newfound lucidity fills the crisp air,
meeting the chatter of the finches in a song so full of life,
so blissful, so present.
i stand and look into the mirror,
now gazing upon the reflection of a face so new,
yet so familiar!
on her face forms a smile,
"Hello."

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[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 22 points 1 year ago

I hate when games are open world just cause. I only ever enjoy an open world when there's an insane amount of lore like in Skyrim or Fallout, but in most games I prefer a linear gameplay or semi-open (Mass effect, Dragon Age)

At some point something happened and literally every game has to be open world now 😭

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 20 points 1 year ago

I mean you can do both

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 80 points 1 year ago

i came out as female to my family and close friends and they have all been very supportive 🥺❤️

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It I look up my account (gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org) on Mastodon it shows my latest comment as 3 days ago?

[-] gaytswiftfan@beehaw.org 45 points 1 year ago

I agree with most of your post and can relate to the sentiment but I'm very lost on why you actively looked for a negative comment in a sea of positivity just to say you're leaving? no one is forcing you into these spaces, if you wanted to use reddit that is ok 🫤 but beehaw so far has been overwhelmingly positive in comparison and I feel that edit is doing it an injustice (again just my opinion)

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