I'm glad I tried.

But I'm also doing so much better now and a 15mg Adderall xr does has been working great for 2 years now. I also found a job that follows my passions and I've been able to channel the hyper focus and drive to build and keep a schedule for work. The last step is to reintegrate my fitness hobby (cycling) back into my life and I'll be back to where I was before some asshole manager from my previous job caused a mild panic attack in me and things broke down.