This sounds over the top to me.

I don’t care if I have support from others or not. I’m already used to never having my voice heard or being rejected, it makes no difference.

I see no problems with this part of the previous comment. It can be fine to live like a hermit or a fool on the hill. The Buddha gave up everything and didn't care what others said.

Well yes. Unfortunately, the mens mental health industry is woefully underdeveloped and often not taken seriously. I'd go therapy if there was an option for me to do so, unfortunately there isn't any in my region, non trained to deal with my personal circumstance at least. For a time I was going to therapy by my own regard but then the therapist who I was seeing passed suddenly in a car accident and there's no one capable of replacing them.