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submitted 3 months ago by tpyoman@lemmy.world to c/voidscreaming@lemmy.ml

I don't know what I'm doing, I hate my job I hate my life, all I do is work, get stoned, sleep wake up repeat, I yearn for a passionate community someone that cares as much as me but isn't tied to a wage or a visa to enact change.

I want to run away but I'm scared I'll end up dissapointing eceryone.

KMS seems like the easy way out but I can't allow myself to do that people depend on me.

Why am I so weak? What should I do? Why am I here? Will I ever find love? Is it all a lie?

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[-] InputZero@lemmy.ml 3 points 3 months ago

I've been there friend, and I've had being okay far away from myself for a long time. To answer your questions.

Why am I so weak?

No, you're not weak. Feeling weak is something everyone feels sometimes. It's okay.

What should I do?

Maybe you could reach out for help. Just because you're paying a professional to provide counseling or medical treatment doesn't invalidate the work that they and you are putting into yourself. I can't say what course is right for you.

Why am I here?

I wish I knew why any of us were here, but alas that's one of life's biggest mysteries. The best answer I've ever heard was "to embrace the absurdity of your own existence, and experience it."

Will I ever find love?

Keep looking, it takes time.

Is it all a lie?

Yes, but not the way I think you are thinking. The lie is the expectation that we should have all the things that make us happy now and all we need to do is follow the path set up for us. That's pure bullshit we're fed from the cradle to the grave. Following someone else's path means they've already used up the good stuff. Step off the path a little every now and again.

[-] tpyoman@lemmy.world 3 points 3 months ago

Thanks Zero I needed that.

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Scream Your Unpleasant thoughts into the void! Sometimes it makes them quieter! ...sometimes. (Almost) Everything is OK! I will remove only select things if they suggest other races or genders should not exist. otherwise, SCREAM.

This is the corollary to c/mentalhealth where you have to be concerned about not triggering others. Here, you can just say it and have it witnessed or temporarily vibed with. Sometimes you just gotta let the void call out to quiet it, and this space is here for you.

I do recommend that you perhaps not subscribe to this community to avoid regular negativity in your browsing experience. Just let this space be here for you when the void is consuming you and you need to scream at it to get it to back off.

If you do choose to respond to a poster, please try to VALIDATE them (validation =/= support/encouragement for such thoughts). You can tell them their thoughts are things that exist and that deserve to be heard without telling them that those thoughts SHOULD exist or that they are supposed to be thinking them. Doing so is an art, however, and it's ok if you have not mastered it. Thank you for being here.

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