Been not posting for a bit for bad-feeling reasons and now this

Shit just keeps getting worse and worse

One antigen test (all I had/can afford) is negative but I'm almost certain its covid cuz my friend I see all the time is sick and someone they live with has a confirmed case :(

I have never felt more doomer in my life, can't stop thinking about not living

I don't want to get worse anymore

At least this time I don't feel so sick