Are the books that bad?

Yes. I write my notes for this weekly thread between chapters and after the first 3 chapters I had to force myself to stop taking notes for the volume so that it doesn't turn into a wall of vitriol. It's seriously bad. Like the day dreams of a permanently bullied 13 old kid that thinks that everything would magically fall in place for him if only X would happen. There is no self reflection and everything is happening to outside factors. I really think that author is a severely damaged person and kinda feel pity while reading the book and his world view shines through.

That being said, I started volume 2 a hour ago.