I had some feelings that I was different when I was younger, but being raised by a narcissist Christian mother and homophobic father meant I learned to suppress everything that wasn't "normal" very well. Ended up being suicidal for most of my teenage years from trying to fit in a perfect child mold.

I went to university later in life, and being surrounded by people who were open about their sexuality and personal journeys helped me open up to myself.

It took me until I was almost 40 to finally start coming out to people. I was worried my partner wouldn't like me anymore, but she's been very supportive. I consider myself pansexual nonbinary. I'm a person who likes people. It is a bit weird for me sometimes because I even though I do find other people sexually attractive irrespective of their gender, I've only ever been with my wife. Sometimes it feels like I'm stealing a label because I never got the chance to explore before I was married, and I'm not about to cheat on my wife.