I have been watching these year-end videos these YouTubers make and the moment they go "hope you have a great 2026" or "2025 has been amazing!", my brain goes "OH NO" and idk why.
Seriously I am not giving enough damn about the new year this year. My brain somehow stopped comprehending days and months this year. It doesn't feel to me like we are at the end of an year. It feels I'm stuck in some heavy brain fog that is unable to comprehend time. One of my friends say the same, and I'm struggling to understand why.
Now coming to year-end videos, I understand they're trying to push some positive vibes about the new year and all but my brain can't help but worry about the new year coming upon us and spiralling in the thoughts of "Did everyone else had a great year except me?". This happens only during these videos and I am not really worried about the new year coming on itself, as I have given up on giving importance to these arbitrary numbers humans created and which has barely any significance.
Maybe I should just sleep more. This year has been my worst year of sleeping due to various reasons, so yeah.
Sorry and not sorry for this rambling. I just needed to get it out there somewhere and I just posted it here and wanna know what other people think about this or the new year.
Good night. Walnuts can help with your sleep if you don't want to take pills.
I didn't know that. Will start eating walnuts. Thanks :3