I'm highschool student and computer science maniac. To get into good computer science studies I need to be good at math and I really sucks at math. Even on this easy tests in school for 1 exercise from 5 I have to spend my whole time and because of that I have terrible grades.
I would like to like math and enjoy it, but it's not clear for me at all and boring af. Every minute of time which I spend on learning math sucks. At the same time I can spend whole my day by tinkering and reading about computer science. In computer science everything is clear for me. There's a lot of great documentation, manual pages and resources.
In the case of math the most things which I find on internet are just ads of paid courses preparing for exam or other shit behind a paywalls. Still there's a lot of content from which I can get knowledge but I don't consider them to be exactly what I'm looking for. Maybe I should try resources in English language. At least I have school book for math which is not that bad.
I hate equations because when I'm doing them I ALWAYS make mistakes, I'm getting lost when I have to rewrite numbers multiple times.
I hate these stupid math language and symbols which is saying nothing to me.
I hate my math teacher, because he just don't care and I can't get normal answer for my questions without nastiness.
When I learning something I have these hard moments but then finally I achieve my goal, I'm getting my reward and I'm happy. But when I'm learning math there's no any reward, only punishments and bad grades.
I'm not idiot and I have the best grades in my class expect math where even complete idiots can be better than me.
I was thinking to maybe connect programming with math but I don't know how. I know that for stuff like that Python or R are great but for right now I'm obsessed on C programming.
Sorry if this post is complete nonsense for you (like math for me). I can't speak with sense as I don't understand what is wrong with me or this math. I just wanted to let off steam. I really would like to enjoy math as it seems to be interesting topic. I was interested about it as kid but school completely destroyed my passion.
I had quadratic functions which I understand but I failed them completely when I was doing test few days ago. At the same day I was also doing test from Vieta's formulas (test from quadratic functions was overdue) and I had better result because something like 50%. For right now we have trigonometry - circles, chords etc. simple stuff at the moment
Strangely, I never understood the 'formal' version of the quadratic equation, but when I rewrote it in different ways I could better understand, it made more sense to me.
If anything, somehow I learned the Taylor Series, Linear Algebra, Matrices, and even Infinite Series algorithms such as Sine and Cosine formulas all on my own, yet I never could grasp the comprehension of the standard quadratic equation.
I'd basically have to reverse the quadratic equation for it to even half make sense to me, then forward solve to figure out what's what and get to the final answer.
Don't get me wrong, I could solve for the quadratic equation, it just didn't make much logical sense to me, like what variables mean what, do any of the variables mean anything?
Not everyone inclined to do more advanced math always understands the oldschool formal math form, and that even partly includes me.
I figured out how to calculate π when I was only 17 years old, and that wasn't even a school assignment. But I didn't use the formal Greek symbols either, I wrote the code on my computer. I think it was only about 9 lines of code altogether originally.
I used variables named I, N, P, R, X, Y (Index, Normal, Pi, Radius, X, Y) in my process, utilizing recursive subdivision, the Pythagorean Theorem (3,4,5 triangle), normalization, and division of semi-circular line segments, multiplied by their divisions.
No, I don't expect you to solve that right now, this isn't a test. Just saying, I found it easier to learn math on a computer, while avoiding the confusing Greek symbols.
Edit: No, none of that involved AI, that was back around the year 1999. I was just interested in mathematics back then. The math itself, boring as hell. But when I found successful use, it was exciting!
Maybe I should try to make some exercises in C program