I got some book recommendations from another community to see what has been discovered about ADHD since I got diagnosed 20 years ago. I bought a few and they haven't been delivered yet. For example, I didn't know my auditory sensitivities and rejection sensitivities were associated until recently. Also, daydreaming apparently.
But right now I'm in my mid-40s and I can't function. The political situation in the US is dangerous, there are serious issues with ethics and safety at my job that would have never been as prevalent when I started 20 years ago, there are pedophiles and people who protect them represented by half the population. So at this point, people scare me, I feel alone, and I think everyone else is nuts. You all know what they say about that.
With everything going on and my inability to handle basic tasks, I feel like I'm going nuts. It could cause trouble with my job soon. Any basic additional everyday problem is a major issue I can't handle. I can't focus at all, I can't do any hobby with decision paralysis, my anxiety is through the roof, and ADHD is ruining my life.
I'm too old to add more amphetamine s to my dosage. What can I do? Would a therapist be able to even do anything here?
Do employee assistance programs help?
I noticed when I transitioned that my ADHD symptoms changed from manageable to impossible, so I suspect hormone changes as you get older can have a similar effect. I used to be the "can't sit still, constantly interrupts people, never pays attention" type, now I'm the "can't start or switch tasks, can't regulate emotions, hyperfixates on pointless shit" type. I was unmedicated for 20 years, now I'm going back to the psych to be reevaluated again because it's gotten so bad.