I got some book recommendations from another community to see what has been discovered about ADHD since I got diagnosed 20 years ago. I bought a few and they haven't been delivered yet. For example, I didn't know my auditory sensitivities and rejection sensitivities were associated until recently. Also, daydreaming apparently.
But right now I'm in my mid-40s and I can't function. The political situation in the US is dangerous, there are serious issues with ethics and safety at my job that would have never been as prevalent when I started 20 years ago, there are pedophiles and people who protect them represented by half the population. So at this point, people scare me, I feel alone, and I think everyone else is nuts. You all know what they say about that.
With everything going on and my inability to handle basic tasks, I feel like I'm going nuts. It could cause trouble with my job soon. Any basic additional everyday problem is a major issue I can't handle. I can't focus at all, I can't do any hobby with decision paralysis, my anxiety is through the roof, and ADHD is ruining my life.
I'm too old to add more amphetamine s to my dosage. What can I do? Would a therapist be able to even do anything here?
Do employee assistance programs help?
Sorry if I'm not suppose to comment in this space (don't see a specific rule in the sidebar) but just wanted to share what I'm trying out because I'm going through something similar atm and in the same age bracket.
I've decided I'm done with any sort of plan, project, goals, or dream. I don't set any expectation on what to get done for the day, I don't accept anymore "things" that may add to my workload (like even defunct electronics or things I might want to tinker with in the future). I've got so much shit going on and daily I find myself in a place where even though I've been non-stop busting my ass for 18hours straight, my situation and "progress" has actually back-stepped because now the dog has pissed on the rug so the house is actually dirtier than it was when it started (just something that set me off the other day as an example).
I'm not making plans with friends or family anymore. If we get a chance to hang then awesome, but I'm not going to agree to holidays or trip ideas because it's just too stressful running up to the date. I could go on but you get the gist. I think we've been super trained to always have those goals and dreams when it's just suffocating my day to day life. I don't even want to think about networking, side projects, or remodeling that needs to be done. I will attempt to become at peace with my day first and let life happen.
This isn't to say I'm not doing anything like sitting around all day. I just do things that are in front of me and that I have time for. There are always priorities like immediate household family and work that I must take care of but the rest of the day will just be me floating like a butterfly around the house doing whatever is needed in that moment (this is the plan, trying to rewire my brain to make this work).