You are what you do.

I find some things I wanted to do just didn't fit in the way I was doing them.

For example journaling and meditation, two things you mentioned, weren't great for me to be consistent about; I don't get something out of them every time and they don't build up for me. I practice meditation enough that its there when I need it to calm things down but not religiously. Journaling was just about reflection to me, just find some quiet time and think, no need to bring writing into it, and finding that time/looking for it/wanting it, I think helps keep over-stimulation in check.

For weightlifting, why bother? Because I see the consequences in others, it only gets harder the older you get. I liked the idea of "earning" the day by doing something hard to commit to my future and sometimes the hard thing is working out with a migraine or illness, I'm lucky to still be able to.

What do these things mean to you; what do you want out of them.