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It took me forever to get into an appointment with a therapist. My mom and dad see her weekly and love her, so I had a lot of hope. I asked for time off work, drove 30 minutes to the office and got stood up. She completely forgot about me and missed the appointment. I've been suicidal for a long time, and it's creeping up again. Things are getting bad, I'm headed for a breakdown, there's no avoiding a complete mental collapse now I can feel it. I don't know if I will survive this round, I don't think I care if I do or not. I don't know if I even want to.

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[–] Praxinoscope@lemm.ee 0 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

It sounds like you're a bit trapped in a cycle of catastrophizing thought, which can be really hard to get out of. I've been there and know it's really tough. You need to try to reframe your thinking, as a breakdown doesn't need to be inevitable unless you make it. Try to practice some meditation, break from your normal activities by doing something new, and make sure to seek help. Just because you missed one therapy session doesn't mean you can't try again. Hang in there!