That's really rough - I know it can be bad out there. I have a friend who needed to be crowdfunded a new pair of glasses and I felt like... "This is such shit." Particularly because both of his parents have died and he has no support network... There are a lot of issues out there, and... while we disagree on a lot... I am certainly sorry to hear about anyone's financial problems...

I've experienced poverty a little... Not a lot, and I still had a safety net I hadn't quite hit, but like... I know enough that I am very glad it never got really bad. And so I can say it really is traumatic and scary, and it can feel humiliating. I hope new opportunities come your way and that you can break the chains.