Not wanting to dedicate my life to getting fit. When I started working out I had this idea that I needed to be as ripped as possible otherwise I had failed gym life. I'd be at the gym five times a week. I'd spend my days trying to figure out how to get as much gains as possible. I made 800 kcal disgusting smoothies made out of ice, peanut butter, protein powder, dates and what not. You could cement a house with those bad boys. I'd skip going out with friends because the thought of having a drink while out in a bar gave me anxiety because I thought that it would destroy all my progress of the week.

I got ripped because of it. I got strong. But mentally it made me a wreck because everything I was doing, I did it for the gainz.

Now I work out to stay healthy and active and to remain strength. If I want to go out a day after a workout or if I don't have a workout during the week I don't freak out anymore. I have found a much healthier balance for myself which allows me to be far more consistent. And I have a much healthier relationship with food now. Have a drink if you feel like it. Have a cheat day, whatever. It's not going to magically destroy every gain you have ever made.

Sure I could be bigger in terms of muscle right now but that is not my goal anymore.