In 2019 my friend started sending me compilations of ADHD and ASD videos and memes. They had clocked me long before I understood myself, probably due to my severe sensory issues that make life hell for me and anyone living with me. I thought they were funny and really resonated but it was a very very slow realization. I was in a lot of denial but the more other people talked about their struggles (through comedy, my main coping mechanism) the more I identified with them.

I've been formally diagnosed with ADHD. I have taken all of the tests for ASD and score highly but I am not pursuing an official diagnosis. The ADHD can be used for any accommodation I request and generally isn't used against people the way an ASD diagnosis would be.

It's been about a 4 year journey of self reflection and exposure to what ADHD/ASD really are (vs. the dated stereotypes of "squirrel" or nonverbal or Rain Man) to understand there's an explanation for my many, many traits.

Tl;Dr funny tiktoks made me question my identity and I unraveled