Yeah I really don't enjoy them

I agree, I avoid PvP games and turn of any PvP element in games that allow that. Singleplayer games and MMO's that focus on PvE (even in group situations) are just a lot more fun for me. I like multiplayer games as long as you are not actively working against each other.

Recently I participated in the RuneScape 3 fresh start worlds and went for a top 100 spot on the Agility hiscores. And I just notice that I start spending way too much time on the game when I try to compete with other players.

I generally have the same feeling with online FPS games. I used to play Battlefield 3, 4 & 1 a lot. Eventually I realize those games are so intense, and I'd get tired so easily. They still sounds fun to play but I don't want to deal with the intensiveness, the competitiveness of the game so I never come back, but they still are good games.

I personally stopped playing any multiplayer games. I don't know what it started happening, but it feels like everything went from casual fun, to grindy bullshit and competitive sweatfest.

Maybe it's just me, I put too much pressure on myself, but I know that it wasn't there before. I used to be able to play without feeling this intense pressure of being good, because I didn't want to be a burden for my team and didn't want to be insulted by virulent players.

BR games were the worst for this. The longer you are alive, the more pressure builds up. Things could be going smoothly, you're not crossing even one enemy, and all of the sudden: it's just you and your friends, versus another team. You make one wrong move, and it's over. It's over, and it's your fault. I can't do that. I can't handle the pressure of being responsible for this. Feeling like I've ruined and wasted their time.

I play to have fun. To relax. I was never getting angry. But my friends, they did. They were nice to me, we're still friends after all, I wouldn't have tolerated abuse. But I could tell, I wasn't as good as them, and they hated losing when we were playing games. They would get angry, and the pressure of doing good was getting to me. It stopped being fun, and it didn't used to be this way. So I stopped.

I only play single player games now. It's been a really long time since I played online. Although, I sometimes think of going back to Titanfall 2, it is still one the greatest FPS ever made in my opinion, and I just adored it, I was really good at it too.

But yeah. I never get angry and rarely feel pressured now when playing a game and losing. No one is going to insult me, or berate me, and I am not dragging anyone down. If I do get angry, it is because some bullshit is happening. Like the game pulled a Mario Kart on me, and decided that I was going to lose because that's the way it is I guess.

I feel like you made the right move. It shouldn't be this way, it shouldn't make you feel this bad, and if it is, then you should quit. It's not your fault, it may even not be the game's fault, it doesn't have to be anyone's or anything's fault. If it's just better for you, then do it.

I suggest to check out some single player games, there is a lot of them. Lots of variety. :)

I dunno how much skill they take.

I personally love Apex, but I understand where you're coming from. I saw another person comment this, but I think it is important to highlight again: games should be fun. If you're not having fun, perhaps you should take a step back and evaluate whether or not it's helpful or if you're truly still enjoying it or playing for other reasons.

I want to upvote you a thousand times. I mean, I don’t have 900 hours logged in a battle royale game, but I have tried a few.

The suckiest part to me, the bad, is how fucking long it takes to go from joining a match to the next.

I suck at these games, and that’s fine by me. I realise that being good comes from experience, and experience comes from failure. I know I need to fail one thousand times before I am decent, and I know I need to fail ten thousand times before I am good.

Therefore, if the gameplay experience is to wait two minutes to find a game to join, wait a minute for everyone to queue, wait for a minute to hit land after the drop, run around searching for anything to use for 5 minutes, run around searching for anyone to fight for 5 more minutes, and then lose the fight? I just spent 15 minutes doing nothing.

Compare that to a shooter that has a game mode in which I can respawn in 5 to 10 seconds. Much more fun.

I hate battle royales because I very much dislike the gameplay loop, but because they are popular every new shooter is a BR. Bah.

I spent lots of time in Erangel one spring/summer several years ago.

I had fun, but I don't know why every big game had to become battle royale. I had my fill of fun, and was on to the next thing.

Not a fan of br's. I really wish hero shooters stuck around for longer, but unfortunately overwatch cornered the market then imploded. Now we're stuck with Valo, CS, Apex and Fortnite for competitive shooters, which leaves a lot of genres of the table.