Anyone who thinks colour isn’t a big part of this needs to question themselves. I’m a lil white non American and over the years I have questioned is the USA really racist? Over the last 20 years or so it’s become evident how systematic. Over the last 6 month it’s on full show.
Respect to all out there fighting racism and facism. Use every tool you have including your words.
I don’t have much advice, I understand your place. I just wanted to chime in and say hey someone is listening. It’s Sad that you are not alone, but you are not alone. Some people are just dicks. Some people like you just wanna let it out and you were about. Some people get overtaken by the moment and it sounds like you handled that well. How they respond is on them and their emotional maturity.
Maybe make the decision to not to let others live in your head today. You make your head full of your happy thoughts.