sounds hasty, but its been more than a year since i've found out, and i've done literally nothing

Like literally maybe allowing myself to have pink and purple things without being afraid, and my Power Puff Girls sweater

but thats it

FOR A YEAR

Despite the poor (not like bad, they thought they were helping, its poor in execution) reception when i hinted at experiencing gender dysphoria, I want to let my family know that I am completely and utterly certain.

I have some sort of future, and I want to make the most out of whats possible. Im just so scared.

I don't know why, I'm in a much better position than many of my trans comrades. I can legally try to obtain hormone therapy, as there are gender clinics in Oahu. I know friends (even though they have moved away) and many comrades that could help. Its a wide, but weak, net. But again this is the unreliable narrator shit, It could literally be completely fine, or hell, to do this, im just afraid.

But i'd rather be afraid in my real body than forever stuck in this banal hell.

And hi, I'm Catra!