I'm happy to go down with this Ship of Nighmares. Like Stink here, I am disgusted at the unavoidable blood sacrifices that make my way of life tick. I refuse to help an evil rose bloom, even if I live on the very same vine.
I will be singing praises and comforting my loved ones as this rampaging monster is brought down.
If Viktor Frankl can find solace and happiness in a Nazi concentration camp, I can manage to live what's left of my life happily celebrating the end of this Evil Empire.
Thanks! I like how it's "part of a series on Margaret Thatcher"
There better be "British public latrines" in that series.
Excellent points, but what is TINA?
Thanks for the reply, I'll check out that app. I had Headspace on a student subscription for a while. I've found just having "quiet time" is enough for me, sitting or making a meal. I may check out Buddhism more seriously rather than doing "McMindfulness".
I'll check out the protein puddings too. I got some Vegan protein powder, but I sometimes use jerky if there's no other way my body will eat protein. Trying out TVP, having some success.
I am now confident I'm burnt out (have been for over a decade). It's so hard to take it slow with a looming deadline of "You'll be homeless in 5 months". On the other hand, I've been through cycle after cycle of burnout, and I'm so done.
I'm taking things at my own pace more, and I know when I've "run out of spoons", at least for today.
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I feel like we're in similar positions.
I'm thinking of putting minimal effort into finding a job, but not giving up. Then, finding ways to get out and connect with people more. Maybe a person I meet has a job, maybe I get a friend, maybe I get overwhelmed and go home early. But, I can't keep trying the same stuff as usual, since it hasn't really been working.
I'm in a similar position as OP, and I really appreciate what you wrote.
I tried to 'escape' by doing part time stuff and tried to start my own business, and it didn't get off in time. Now, I have to go back, defeated, eventually desperate for a job, financially set back a year or two.
I know I've grown a lot as a person in the past 4 years, but I feel like I'm just getting older and going nowhere.
That sucks to hear about your crush moving away. I'd say it's okay to be upset about it for a while.
First self-improvement post. I'm feeling rough and defeated lately.
After what I'll call a sabbatical, I have to go job searching again. Thankfully, I still have a few more months before I run out of money. But, after looking for jobs for just one month, I feel so burnt out and demotivated.
I regret quitting my old job, even though I know I had to quit for my own sanity.
On a positive note, I haven't given up yet.
My biggest hurdles are PTSD and stress. I'm so fucking tired and scared all the time. I also struggle to eat enough protein, but I'm minding that as much as I can bear. I just constantly fear that I can't do it, I feel like I'm just ready to collapse. Maybe I am burnt out, instead of trying harder, I think I just need to stop, or at the very least reduce stimulation.
I left a position that I couldn't take anymore. Got a part time thing to tide me over while I figure out what I want to do.
Time's up, and my most realistic option is to go back to the meat grinder. If it's any consolation, I found it most tolerable when I took the perspective of a fly-on-the-wall of this great Farce.
Shame, I have a different background.
Can't do that without doxxing myself
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