Love isn't something you "deserve". Nobody does. It's given. You can give your love to a person. You are not stealing anything, you are creating more love.
Weird is no barrier, I can say that from a place of long experience, I've been weirder than my guys, someone has to be the weird one in any relationship.
Disability or illness also not a barrier, it will be a slight limit but a sizeable minority of guys really truly don't care, care much more about who you are, and good news is that group is mostly made of the guys who don't care if you are weird.
You don't NEED a relationship to be whole. Don't take any of the above to mean you must get out there and date. Do what you want. But be disabused of the idea that love is deserved and the idea that you do not fall into that "deserving" bucket.
I don't get this. Not even high school girls find high school boys attractive. How could a grown woman? And what's with the language, the word is raped or sexually abused/assaulted, 16 year old here is assumed unable to consent to sex with any adult.