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My dad is also a manipulative abuser. He beat all of his kids, emotionally abused them and sexually abused some of us. I was his golden child, so I got it the least.
We had a falling out because during the child and family services apprehension of my little sisters, he was very mad that I took their side and wrote a letter of "support" about him where I was very honest about what he is like and what he has done. He never forgave me for anything I said. Around 4 years ago, he called me at midnight and said he was cutting me off. I got one message the next Christmas and my next birthday where he moaned that his "baby boy" doesn't want to talk to him anymore. I never had a chance to come out to him, it almost certainly would've gone badly because he's a Christian fundamentalist and a bigot. That call was the last time we ever talked or communicated, I've been healthier since the estrangement (that was his idea).
I wish he was the man I thought he was when I was a little kid.
My dad has been depressed and suicidal as well. But you can never take that on, what he chooses to do with respect to suicide is all on him. Don't take that burden, there's no need and it's not yours to take. My very first girlfriend ever, when I was in middle school, killed herself after I broke up with her. I was devastated, of course, and it took me a while to learn it wasn't my responsibility or my fault that it happened
So fucking evil.
If you've never had chemo, nausea is one of the most common side effects. People develop a pavlovian response to just seeing the chemo bag (I've seen it). People can even get nauseous just driving by the cancer centre. Zofran/ondansetron is one of the most common antiemetics pre-chemo meds and it works pretty fucking good, sometimes they go up to Aprepitant for chemo cause it can still make you super nauseous