IBU is great. The side project of one of the two guys is good too. Templar? something like that
autonomous
joined 2 years ago
Dewulf + Ivens has been great every time. (although I miss Ivan Iusco's Nightmare Lodge influences on Concrete Jungle)
Dewulf's solo industrial Mildreda isn't bad either.
However I still like the original Suicide Commando version of WDWGFH with Dirk's vocals better.
She was in TNG before she was in DS9 🙃
Just doesn't compare to Block 57's version 🤷♂️
nearly any electronic device of any architecture: "I could install netbsd on that" 🤔
there can only be one!
It's 1234, but there isn't any money in there anyways
too many possible things can go wrong with installers, with arch I know I'll get it working faster if even the slightest issue occurs which would otherwise derail installer distros 🤷♂️
that day came and went when heavily customizable window managers were alive. everything now pales in comparison.
The money was spent on educating them what the government wanted them to know, as opposed to what they deserve to know?
I'm shocked america is so high in spending considering how terrible our education system is unless you pay for it yourself. Wouldn't surprise me one bit that much of the spending is not actually on what we would expect. 🤷♂️
view more: next ›
I can relate to this, infact in addition to these experiences I have chronic muscle pain from tension which primarily comes from being in contact with others.
Being isolated and in control of my environment has been pretty much the only way to minimize it.
As for which of the causes you described are behind the energy drain; for me being perceived automatically turns on what feels like a background awareness that cannot be turned off until no one is there.
I consider masking to be part of this awareness; a self-defense mechanism that we learn early in our development to protect ourselves from harm by calculating how we react in order to minimize potential harm. In those situations it is impossible to feel entirely safe because we cannot control our environment and if we won't react carefully we might end up with even more interaction we desperately don't want.
Perhaps it is similar in nature to how something that lives in the wild has to maintain a constant awareness to avoid being caught off guard and potentially killed. An activation of fight-or-flight/primitive brain centers in the brain.
That is one source of energy drain in itself
There is also the energy drain from the much higher amount of sensory input we are being fed from our brains having many more synapses than those without autism. We can't simply filter out or ignore everything we are receiving, there's simply too much of it. It has to be stopped at the source before it can become sensory input. Isolation is the easiest way to accomplish this.