Reddit just feels like hive mind jokes and reposts, but on lemmy people are genuinely interacting so it feels more engaging (which don't get me wrong, happens on reddit too, you just have to sift through all the stupid marinara flag jokes)
Right, Halloween decorations were meant to be year round
A few big ones really stuck with me.
As a child, it wasn't a complicated dream, but I was dreaming that I was wearing roller skates and a rabbit was pushing me up and up and up a hill, and then pushed me off a cliff. I woke up on the floor.
Past decade, I had a dream about this really abusive ex and his family. We were out on the ocean on these little crappy rafts, and for some reason he and I were in a fridge as a boat. I feel out I think, and there were whales in the water. They grabbed my arms and started pushing me down, and down, and down, and then let go and I just kept going down and then I woke up.
I have had a few more deep ocean dreams but they trigger such a huge fear response (have thalassophobia) that they now always become a lucid dream and I switch to flying to get away from the water.
Past couple of years, I had this really weird one, there was a grim reaper kind of thing following me around wherever we went and it was terrifying. He was just everywhere I went in the dream. I was in the car and we were driving past our city hall and he was on the steps. I had had enough, I made my bf stop driving, I got out, and ran up the steps toward it shouting, "FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU!" I woke up actually in the middle of yelling the third one IRL 😆
Oh and a weird random not quite a dream. About 15 years ago one night I woke in the middle of the night during a dream, and there was this bright vivid scene still in my eyes just hanging in the air in front of me for a good minute, it was crazy, it faded and I got up because I was in disbelief that it had happened. Just a weird brain didn't turn off the dream thing entirely I guess
I think a little bit it's just that people typically like labels. They want to fit neatly into their little labeled box and the more labels they have, the more unique and/or complete they feel.
I really rejected labels as a teen, I hated the idea of it. Now I realize they can be useful for some things, and you know, if my trans brother feels better because his label is now male, that's fine it doesn't hurt me any to call him what makes him feel good.
It's really sad, I really liked him at one time - he used to make a lot of sense to my very lefty mind, and then at some point I realized the things he was saying were becoming more conspiracy than reality and that I didn't really agree with him anymore. I like science and evidence, not crazy bullshit.
The most niche thing I probably do (badly) is making chocolate. Not like, just tempering chocolate, but putting nibs and milk powder and sugar and cocoa butter in my countertop melanger and letting it work for like 24 hours until it's nice and smooth. I haven't really perfected it at all and my chocolate recipe is currently mediocre, and i need to experiment with better nibs and roasting them myself, but it's an interesting process that I enjoy.
Otherwise uh, IDK I do everything. I love cooking/baking, and most types of art, I'm huge into fabric arts like nuno felting and needle felting, embroidery is one of my absolute favorite things, I'm pretty decent at sewing, I also like to draw and I am really itching to get into sculpey jewelry crafting and maybe miniatures, I've dabbled in wire jewelry (meh at it), I built (with help) a coffee table where the top comes up so you can turn the base on its side to become a dining table, I'm sure there a bunch of stuff I'm forgetting... oh I guess I'm really good at laundry? I can get stains out of almost anything at this point.
Well week 2 of "potentially going to just end up homeless" is pretty shit too. Looked at a house an hour away, it was awful, roof in disrepair, the guy was living in one room and smoking in it after his divorce so the whole house smelled like smoke, there was moss growing in a window. Multiple other issues. Noped out of that one.
Stared at realtor site longer.
One gets listed that's perfect, it meets every single one of our needs and isn't a long commute, we go look, put in an offer. We have the highest offer. Our agent calls saying the realtor says if we can offer a gap coverage if the house appraises lower we'll be close, we can do a small gap (5k) and still have enough to close. She calls back later, apparently they're now between us and another offer, but they have a higher gap so if we can offer 10k and extend closing date we'll probably get it. Talk to family, they say we can borrow 3k if necessary, great we have just enough.
Nope they did the same thing to the other buyer and increased the gap and chose them.
I just want to give up. Fuck all of this, fuck shitty landlords and fuck scummy real estate agents, fuck the housing market, fuck not having enough money, fml
I cannot think of a game that has better value for money than Factorio.
Rimworld. It's the only other one I can think of that people play for insane hours, it's still my most played game and I've barely touched it in a long while, I think I have 1400ish, my boyfriend has over 3.5k hours
Removing ourselves from a shitty situation is not anti free speech. They are free to say whatever they want, and I am free to not have to read it. If you want to interact and read it you are free to go there.
Look at how free we all are.
Corporations buying them up to rent out is my speculation, between that, people attempting to flip them, and just regular home buyers, it's making for a very low amount available which causes prices to be high, and new houses aren't being built fast enough to keep up.
Fucking ugh. This week is just ugh. Our landlady has brain cancer (our rent is currently about half what apartments are going for in our city, they doubled during covid) and I'm not sure if she's passed or not but her adult son has taken over the building with his wife and as of Tuesday have given us notice that at the end of the month we'll get a letter giving us 60 days to move out (month to month lease). We just had a second child in January. They're kicking us out with a five month old so they can renovate our apartment and charge double.
So instead of paying a ridiculous amount to rent somewhere again we're attempting to buy a house, but the housing market up here is super tight and they're all going way over asking price within days. I don't know what we're gonna do if we can't find something suitable in the next week or two so we have time to get this all done in time to move. We do have really good credit and enough to close, but finding one that isn't a failed flip or looks like it's from the 70s or isn't snatched up immediately is wearing on me.
Everything needs to line up and it's just not right now. I haven't cried yet so I guess that's alright.
What exactly is an "emotional outburst" for you?
There are a lot of things this could mean, ranging from more benign (sobbing) to extreme or scary (throwing things or screaming or worse)
If it's anywhere near the latter then you need to figure out how to manage those symptoms of your mental illness before you're ready for a relationship.