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@Arkouda@lemmy.ca Even if I get to do something (such as I'm doing right now while trying to express something profound, aware of how I'm probably just yelling to the clouds), it doesn't change the fact that the world behaves like a prison where all lifeforms are thrown to "make a living" (i.e. surviving and competing against other lifeforms because their own vessels offer no other option other than the biological preprogramming of "instincts").

Also, the "exit hatch" is so tight and spiky that one must endure utter pain while trying to squeeze through it. And things like MAID, which would allow one to conscientiously and finally choose something about their own existence, "must be allowed only for the terminally-ill" because "life" is something so, so "sacred" that people can't even dare to think of choosing other than "living" (a.k.a. constantly trying to avoid and postpone the unavoidable by trying to fulfill the vessel's needs while being forced to play the unskippable game of social compliance), because they "must do something fun with their time" and thinking otherwise must be inconceivable!

And it sounds no different from how prisoners must "do something" with their prison time, be it reading a book, playing cards and small-talking with other inmates, taking the obligatory sunbath for the daily dose of Vitamin D, scratching the wall so to keep track of days, or doing the obligatory physical exercising at the grass-field...

I can't help but wonder why some Demiurge threw me to endure the lifelong punishment of "existing", with all the whistles and bells inseparable from human existence: paying taxes and subscriptions (despite any condition of unemployment), seeking and serving jobs so a rich person can become more rich, conforming to civil duties, serving the military and, in many countries, forcefully belonging to some religion, etc, etc... It's so absurd that even Absurdist philosophers would have a hard time trying to frame existence in less absurd terms.

I'm not denying how some moments can be "happy" or "enjoyable", but it doesn't make life less of a prison. It just makes me momentarily distracted from the prison while still being behind the bars of the baryonic matter.

The only thing that really comforts me is knowing how the kiss from the Lady Scythe-Bearer is inevitable and even humans with their fancy tools are powerless against Her, but for me to need to wait for Her bittersweet lips is like a prisoner needing to wait for serving their sentence before getting to gather with their loved one.

My point is: people like me should be allowed to choose to end our own existence without having to endure pain and the high certainty of failure from an attempt of our own (and trust me, I've been trying and failing because my vessel is preprogrammed with the pesky survival instincts). My point is that MAID should be also allowed to anyone who are consciously willing to choose it. But, yeah, it's such a taboo for many people.

@Arkouda@lemmy.ca @Pro@programming.dev

I'm a person who'd be labeled as "truly depressed", as I coexist with the so-called "depression" since my childhood. I went to several mental health professionals, tried several different medications (Paroxetin, Ritalin, Escitalopram, Aripiprazole). Nothing worked.

Here's why: one can't cure something without curing the root cause. One could take painkillers for a headache and the headache would temporarily cease, but the painkiller won't cure whatever is causing the headache in the first place.

Turns out that my "depression" stems from something that can't be cured, the ontological realization of the lack of True Will. It's something way beyond mundane questions such as "I'm far into adulthood and I still don't know what kissing is" or "I'm in adulthood and I didn't manage to achieve a career". My fundamental complaints can't even be put into human language without sounding absurd, because they have to do with the absurdity of existence itself.

My "problems" can't be treated by medications, my "problems" can't be treated by professionals, because my "problems" exist beyond existence.

I have a problem with having being born without my consent. I have a problem with my awareness of the pointlessness of a fleeting biological existence before the carelessness and vastness of the Cosmos. I have a problem with the fact that I must "take responsibility" legally/socially about myself even though I couldn't even choose to be born in the first place. I have a problem with the fact that I must seek to "do/be something/someone useful for society_ so I get to "afford to eat and have a shelter" by having a colorful piece of paper, when there's no proper way to release my body from such needs. I have a problem with how this flesh-and-bones vessel imposes the continuity of existence unto me ("instinct of survival").

Treatent won't solve the root problem (lack of True Will), it'd be just gaslighting me into gaslighting myself by keeping me busy with fleeting mundaneity. As the movie says, "Don't look up": I must not see the ever-approaching dark lips of Death emerging from the darkness of spacetime continuum so I should take medication and walk myself to that queue over there so I can apply for countless jobs until I afford to be chosen by a ~~landlord~~ employer who expects me to grant them more profit.

Even talks about one's own choice on the continuity of existing (MAID) is met with societal rejection, for "life is a gift and we must be thankful to whatever/whoever granted us with life". In this sense, suicide hotlines, treatment and medication aren't so different from clergy and their religious dogmas in the time of feudalism, where peasants were convinced of their "transcendental purpose" to serve... Just history repeating itself.

Unfortunately, no treatment will make me forget how existence is inherently servile, to which I'll continue to shout until Lady Death gets to finally kiss me: "Non Serviam".

@Davriellelouna@lemmy.world

In another Brazilian city I personally know, Jundiaí - SP, some restaurants built some kind of "deck" (made of wood planks) on the side of the street. I tried to embed a photo from one of these (this is my first attempt on sending images to Lemmy using Calckey so I'm not sure if the image will work).

These "decks" were permanently installed, including electrical wiring running from the establishment to the "deck" lights. I don't even know how the city hall authorized this, considering how the region (Campinas Microregion, Jundiaí Urban Agglomeration and Greater São Paulo, all of them in growing process of conurbation) is highly car-centric (yeah, there's a growing public infrastructure including trains and bicycle lanes, and Jundiaí, specifically, is pretty walkable, but many things still seem to revolve around vehicles around there).

On the one hand, this theoretically frees up the sidewalk for pedestrians. On the other hand, it depends on the restaurant respecting pedestrians by keeping the sidewalk clear, and I don't know to what extent these restaurants do this. But this concept of flatbed truck bar isn't too far from that of these restaurants in Jundiaí.

@5714@lemmy.dbzer0.com @hellfire103@lemmy.ca It's not just USA. I'm Brazilian and non-cow dairy/milk is more expensive than cow dairy/milk. I don't know the current prices (it's been a while since I went to a supermarket) but 1 liter of cow milk was something around BRL 3.50 (consider 1 BRL = 5.50 USD) while the same amount of oat milk costs more than BRL 10.00. Soy milk is slightly "cheaper", costing around BRL 6.00 if I recall correctly. It's worth mentioning that they're are produced nationally.

@over_clox@lemmy.world

Just an observation from someone who happened to memorize some ASCII code: from an ASCII viewpoint, 45 73 63 is hex code for "Esc", with "s" being 73 and "c" being 63. I can readily see where bits flipped: at the fifth least-significant bit (compare 73 (0111 0011) and 63 (0110 0011).
Similarly, "no0errors" where "0" should be a space. "0" is 30 while space is 20. Again, another specific flipping at the fifth least-significant bit, only difference that this time a 0 became 1 (compare 30 (0011 0000) and 20 (0010 0000)).

The delimiter from the status of "Test #0" seems like a control char-code emerged from a start bracket. If the start bracket has the same char-code as expected from ASCII (5b), and considering how the flipping of the fifth least-significant bit seems to be recurrent, it'd be 4b but this would result in uppercase K, so it's either a different char-code for bracket or a bit-flipping happening in another position.

But what renders text is the graphics card. Given that the background is slightly shifted rightwards (notice how the blue background cuts through the initial letters from the first column of text, particularly "A" from "Athlon", "L" from "L# cache" and so on), this seems a graphics glitch rather than a memory glitch. And memtest86+ isn't designed to test the GPU, so it's beyond the heuristics. It's akin to expecting memtest86+ to test for dead pixels on a LCD panel: it simply can't.

(P.S.: it's unnecessary and disrespectful to attack others just because others couldn't see what you wanted them to see; slurs won't help people see what you see)

@eierschaukeln@kbin.earth !asklemmy@lemmy.ml

I'll try to bridge science, philosophy and spirituality, as I usually do. To me, there aren't clear boundaries between them bc, to me, they're highly complementary: Science offers the skeptical-empirical rigor and materiality, Philosophy offers the paradoxical questioning and Spirituality emerges from subjectively perceiving the previous two.

I start with the hypothesis that the universe always existed. In such a case, the Big Bang isn't the beginning: rather, it'd be some kind of cyclical cosmic phenomenon where matter and/or the fabric of spacetime continuum collapse (due to expansion) only to explode and expand again. This would respect the Laws of Thermodynamics (and Lavoisier Principle) because there's no energy nor mass being created nor destroyed, just transformed, endlessly. Big Crunch deserves mention bc it's exactly what it's about.

There's also the controversial theory of Zero-sum, where the universe doesn't actually exist. It may sound crazy (We are existent... or are we? Vsauce song starts playing), but it would also respect the aforementioned laws: there's no need of creation or destruction if the overall sum of everything equals to a round nought.

We could also mention the Multiverse theory, String (M-Theory), and Big Bounce. In such a scenario, this universe is just one of countless universes, so the factor sparking it into existence would be outside it, thus outside (beyond) space and time.

The latter takes us into philosophy, the Aristotle's Prime Mover. It could be seen as the "thing" beyond this universe, except that it isn't a "thing" because it has no "thingness", but this lack of "thingness" would imply non-existence, except that it's not something nonexistent either. Here is where human language struggles to define it: language requires "thingness" and temporality, yet the Prime Mover has neither (and it isn't an "it" so it could "have").

This takes us to spirituality. Many religions oversimplify this as "creator deity(ies)", and many (if not all) religions tend to give it agency and shape. While I do have some religiosity (Luciferianism) and tendency of personification (e.g. Lilith as both a red-haired woman and an owl), I also hold the belief that cosmic forces have no particular form, it's just me trying to give some Order to Chaos... And that's what the whole existence seems to be about: Ordo ab Chao, a cosmic, eternal tug-of-war where it's guaranteed that the "sparks" of cosmic order will eventually decay back to a soup of primordial chaos, only to the very chaotic nature of this soup to emerge order again. It's akin to a Double Pendulum, where sometimes the apparent rhythmic motion vanishes into chaotic motion just for the rhythm to unexpectedly reappear later, but it's just the Cosmos: endless and uncaring about lifeforms, for life is just stardust.

I could explain more, but I'm limited to 3000 chars so I must end: Cosmos always existed and never existed.

@folaht@lemmy.ml !asklemmy@lemmy.ml

With some caveats, to me, the answers are:

1. Definitely Magenta
2. I'd say Cyan, even though it still "feels" to me like "the in-between" of Green and Blue
3. Magenta again, which highly looks like red
4. It's a draw between Cyan and Yellow, both seem bright enough to be the closest to white
5. Definitely Magenta again, it feels pretty dark to me (and dark, to me, has a good connotation as I'll explain below).

The caveats are:
- Both laptop and external monitor have IPS panels. If I were to use OLED, quantum-dot displays, Plasma or even the old CRT displays, it'd probably yield different perceptions. I don't own any of these display types to test this, though.
- The specific shape of Venn diagrams also influences on how colors are perceived: a circle have a smaller area (pi×r×r) than a square (s²) or an equilateral rhombus (also s²). Note: I'm considering s = 2r a.k.a. the side of a square equal to the diameter of a circle. The area, in turn, influences how vision perceives contrast.
- Magenta has no real wavelength so it's produced solely by the brain when both L and S cones are simultaneously stimulated at the highest intensities by artificial lights (LED).
- I'm currently in a room lit both by daylight and by "cold white" LED lamp. The sky is clear and there's plenty of vegetation in my vicinity tinting the daylight.
- I access Lemmy using dark mode, and the background is the main aspect influencing contrast (the relationship between colors) and, by extension, perception. Dark background leads to "brighter" colors.
- I use high prescription glasses, and my lenses are slightly yellowed. This possibly influence my perception of colors.
- I have a personal bias towards red and purple due to my specific views on spirituality. Specifically, the way Lilith pulled me in the recent years made me perceive red in a more vivid manner and be attracted to it, while my syntony with Lucifer makes me feel something "divine" with purple (while also sharing some energy with the Lilithian red). Turns out that purple isn't so perceptually different from magenta, and our RGB displays produce both colors artificially with the similar Red-Blue dance (with magenta specifically having less of blue, therefore being less of a Luciferian color and more of a Lilithian color).
- I'm a former developer and someone who's worked extensively from UX/UI to graphic design. I built several full-stack webpages, Delphi 7 and VB6 native applications, as well as brands, logos and leaflets. This made me highly familiar with RGB palettes, and this may be another personal bias in my perception.

So, indeed, color perception is highly subjective although living beings share some commonalities when interpreting colors (e.g. red as "danger"; it's the Carl Jung's "collective unconscious").

@n816Life@lemmy.world

For me, Friendica is and has been partially up. I even posted something on my own profile Saturday and it managed to federate to other Fediverse platforms (Mastodon and Calckey).

For me, only specific functionalities aren't working, such as searching for federated content (such as this thread on Lemmy, for which Friendica returns "No result"), as well as (and this seems to be the major bottleneck) the "/network" tab.

The "/network" tab ("My friend's conversations") will definitely return Gateway Timeout. It's an alias to the index page (i.e. the page loaded when friendica.world is accessed via typing friendica.world on the browser and hitting enter), which will also return Gateway Timeout.

Being aware of this, my approach has been accessing Friendica.World through direct URLs for parts outside the "My Friend's conversations" tab (e.g. the direct link to my own /profile, or the direct link for DMs).

Sometimes it'll return "Service Unavailable" or something similar ("No server is available to handle the request"), to which I simply wait a bit then try to reload until it loads.

So, my advice is trying to:

1. access Friendica using direct URLs (e.g. your own profile's URL, someone else's contact URL, or friendica.world/message) instead of accessing the main.
2. avoid clicking/going to "My Friend's Conversations" as it'll certainly result in "Gateway Timeout"
3. when faced with "Service Unavailable", wait a few seconds and try to reload.
4. when needing to interact with posts outside Friendica (e.g. Lemmy), prefer using other platforms (e.g. I'm using Calckey to reply to your Lemmy thread) because the fetch of federated content isn't working properly.

I suspect that the downtime stems from the way the "My Friend's conversations" is requested by default whenever a Friendica.world user tries to access the instance's website, so this may keeping the server stuck in a bottleneck trying to pull federated content.

@return2ozma@lemmy.world

Greetings! Brazilian here.

First and foremost, Brazil has many religions beyond Christianity: we have Afro-Brazilian traditions such as Candomblé, Umbanda and Quimbanda, as well as numerous Brazilian indigenous traditions, as well as communities practicing Islam, Judaism, Buddhism, Bahá'í and Kardecism, as well as smaller communities practicing Wicca, Luciferianism and many New Religious Movements (such as "New Age").

There are also independent, personal religions, when people (like me) chose to believe in something on their own without any kind of congregation or membership. I'm myself someone who oscillates between religiosity and non-religiosity, between Apatheism (which is not Atheism, despite how both terms look similar) and a deeply-specific mix (syncretism) between Luciferianism, Lilitheism, Gnosticism, Crowley's Thelema and Hermeticism (to mention some of the religious frameworks from which my beliefs stemmed).

The whole Brazilian state was founded on the grounds of Christianity, so Christianity is deeply ingrained in the way our politics do politics.

However, despite Christianity being a tool of indoctrination since the colonization (indigenous people were compelled into Christianity), it's not what leads to indoctrination (and I say this as someone who has a "diametrically opposed belief" to theirs because, after all, I worship their "Persona Non Grata" Lucifer alongside Lilith). Rather, it's social compliance (as per Derren Brown's concepts and social experiments).

People are socially compelled by their family, friends, neighbors, coworkers, employers and others into going to a church and believing in whatever their "leader" (a Bishop, a "Pastor" or a "Father") says. Many Christians "read" the Bible through this "leader", because they fear that reading on their own would lead to defiance and excommunication (which would mean social ostracism for them). That's why they blindly follow, and that's why they're easily manipulated, and that's why politics gets to use their power within the churches to gain more power.

But this isn't something restricted to a specific political spectrum: all political spectra have their grips on Christianity, because, as I said, the entire country is built upon Christianity, so both the right-wing, the left-wing and the center-wing try to take advantage from it, because it holds the majority of Brazilian voters. If the majority of Brazilian voters were, for example, Kardecists, you could bet that politicians would try to twist The Spirits Book to their own whims. Similarly, if the majority of Brazilian voters were from Umbanda or Candomblé, politicians would allege that they're being guided by Orixás and this is why people should vote to them. So it's not the religion to blame (although Christianity itself is to blame by many things), it's simply whatever politicians can use to perpetuate their power and/or trying to be powerful.

@ryujin470@fedia.io !nostupidquestions@lemmy.world

I'm not autistic (AFAIK), but I'm similarly neurodivergent. To be exact, I suspect I have Geschwind syndrome, albeit undiagnosed (and given how it's controversial among neurologists and psychiatrists, as well as how it's not easy to detect and needs to involve expensive MRI and EEG scans, I guess I'll simply die without ever being diagnosed).

Having said this, I have a complicated relationship with "social media". I constantly feel the urge to express, be it through online discussion (as I'm doing now), be it through philosophical/poetic/ritualistic writing, be it through coding, be it through drawing. It's part of the "hypergraphia" trait from the syndrome that I suspect I have.

Whenever I express or seek others' expression around a current subject of interest, it's often highly-abstract content: philosophical, religious/spiritual/esoteric/mystical/theological and scientific (hoping to find something that contains all three simultaneously). In that regard, it has to do with the "hyperreligiosity" and "philosophical rumination".

However, I have a complicated relationship with the concepts such as "human", "loneliness", "friendship", "intimacy" and "relationship". Sometimes I have the urge to express while also haveing the urge to stay alone. Similarly, I get frustrated by superficial interaction: notice how my texts are long (and not just this one, my comment history across Friendica and Calckey, the remnants of my online activity, proves my verbosity), and this requires mental energy, and seeing this energy being converted into shallow exchanges across social networks can definitely frustrate. See how I mentioned "remnants" on my parenthetical break? Sometimes I catch myself nuking my own things: my comments, posts, sometimes entire profiles, out of frustration and/or resignation. I used to have whole blogs with dozens of posts, hundred posts on Mastodon, a Bluesky profile with more than 200 posts: all nuked by myself out of impulsivity.

There's also conflict with my "current subject of interest": similar to ADHD people, sometimes I develop an almost obsessive interest (hyperfocus) around something. Decades ago, it was programming. 5y ago, it was survivalism and Eschatology studies on the biblical Apocalypse. 2y ago, it was Luciferianism, and then Lilith until recently (months ago). It was drawing, it was writing entire ritualistic poetry and chants. 2w ago, it was intensive self-teaching Morse code and ASCII hex code and alphabetic code (A=1,B=2,...). See, I can't rest mentally. And this always involve trying to express about it. This involves trying to participate. This involves trying to belong until I realize I don't, until I realize I can't, until I give up and nuke my own past efforts. So while I do post a lot in social media, it doesn't last for long until I decide for self-destruction once again because I couldn't get meaningful like-mindedness.

@cheese_greater@lemmy.world !asklemmy@lemmy.world

In order to understand what happens with the light from our earthly shelters, one needs to look up. See those stars shining all across the night sky? Those celestial bodies aren't where we see them, and many of them are long gone. So we don't see the stars, we see their "ghosts", compelled to physically wander through the spacetime continuum.

Roughly speaking, EM radiation (and, by extension, visible light) travels indefinitely to the far reaches of cosmos once it's emitted. It'll definitely decay and become fainter and fainter (Inverse Square Law), eventually blending with other faint signals also scattered and wandering through the space. We call it "noise", which is nothing but the sum of all cosmic EM activity that once happened since the dawn of time, especially (but not limited to) that of Big Bang, as "Cosmic Microwave Background", which is still around (it's just that our home equipment, as digital sets, are designed to ignore such noise, but people used to be able to tune into it with the early analog TV and radio receptors).

Now, there's a maxim from Hermeticism that says "As above, so below": just as we see the past from cosmos whenever we look at the skies, some hypotethical extraterrestrial civilization at hundreds of thousands of light-years from here would see (supposing they exist and supposing that they got highly advanced optics) a Pale Blue Dot with some minuscule flame spots on its surface, the bonfires once lit by Homo erectus when they began tinkering with fire. Those extraterrestrials won't see the Earth as it currently is relative to the Sun, which also won't be where it currently is relative to Milky Way, which also won't be where it currently is relative to Laniakea.

Those extraterrestrials definitely won't see our desperate signals begging for them to beam us up (from the former Arecibo transmission all the way to someone lonely blinking their home lights right now desperately trying to call the extraterrestrial attention): we're all screaming to the void, and the void screams back as a silent noise from long-gone celestial bodies. The cosmos is a big cemetery where ghosts are hauntingly compelled to roam around without getting anywhere (still they sometimes stumble upon other ghosts, when energy is absorbed by all sorts of cosmic matter both here and out there).

In the end, this is what happens with your home light every time you turn it off: it becomes some kind of "electromagnetic ghost" electrically "summoned" in your room and unleashed to the outer space, not to haunt, but to be haunted and devoured by the ineffable darkness of the abyss, where it will spend the eternity going everywhere to reach nowhere...

@Supervisor194@lemmy.world

Thanks (I took this as a compliment).

However, I kind of agree with @Senal@programming.dev. Coherence is subjective (if a modern human were to interact with an individual from Sumer, both would seem "incoherent" to each other because the modern person doesn't know Sumerian while the individual from Sumer doesn't know the modern languages). Everyone has different ways to express themselves. Maybe this "Lewis" guy couldn't find a better way to express what he craved to express, maybe his way of expressing himself deviates highly from the typical language. Or maybe I'm just being "philosophically generous" as someone stated in one of my replies. But as I replied to tjsauce, only who ever gazed into the same abyss can comprehend and make sense of this condition and feeling. It feels to me that this "Lewis" person gazed into the abyss. The fact that I know two human languages (Portuguese and English) as well as several abstract languages (from programming logic to metaphysical symbology) possibly helped me into "translating" it.