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I must leave, for a time. (external-content.duckduckgo.com)
submitted 2 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/tenforward@lemmy.world

I won't get into it, but irl got really rough really fast. I won't be around for a couple of months. Do know that I am OK. I deeply love all of you, even Janeway and Paris, the ancient progenitors of the Antedean species.

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Community locked for now. (self.linux_video_editing)
submitted 2 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/linux_video_editing

I've had some really shitty things come up irl, which means I won't be around to mod for at least a couple of months. Therefore, I'm locking this community because I'd rather not see it get overrun. I don't know when this will be back online. Maybe January at best.

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Community locked for now. (self.trans_voice_help)

I've had some really shitty things come up irl, which means I won't be around to mod for at least a couple of months. Therefore, I'm locking this community because I'd rather not see it get overrun. I don't know when this will be back online. Maybe January at best.

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submitted 2 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/high_quality_gifs

I've had some really shitty things come up irl, which means I won't be around to mod for at least a couple of months. Therefore, I'm locking this community because I'd rather not see it get overrun. I don't know when this will be back online. Maybe January at best.

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submitted 2 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/rant

I've made a lot of posts that have taken a considerable amount of my time to make, mostly video edits. I don't think any of them (over 100 across 2 accounts) have ever gotten above ~50 upvotes. About a year ago, I made a post of a meme with the guy getting kicked out of the office saying "High effort and quality gifs". It got over 500 upvotes. That made it seem like people actually want that. In response, I've spent many hours doing video edits, even creating !high_quality_gifs@lemmy.sdf.org (since the LW community is parked and never will receive posts), and making content for that community until I started to get burned out on my hobby. A large percentage of what I have posted has been OC on principle. I've learned that people just don't care.

Why in the world should I keep making video edits when the entirety of the fun has been sapped out by people not caring? I could spend 8-10 hours on a project and people simply won't care because it isn't instantly digestible. Things like memes and 40-100 year old comic strips do incredibly well. It seems like the only 2 examples of high effort that get some engagement are SDF's own !unix_surrealism@lemmy.sdf.org , and !custardfist@feddit.nl. Notable mention to some of the pics communities.

I guess what I'm really ranting about here is not that the things I make aren't appreciated (because the very few comments are generally positive), but the fact that most people don't even want it around or care.

I'm not sure I can keep up the grind anymore. The joy has been sapped out of my hobby. And for what? An instantaneous downvote with every post.

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submitted 2 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/tenforward@lemmy.world

They never understand the clues.

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Must... post! [OC Edit] (files.catbox.moe)
submitted 3 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/tenforward@lemmy.world

Last post for a while, I promise.

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Ex-Khan (i.imgur.com)
submitted 3 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/tenforward@lemmy.world
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submitted 3 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/retrogaming@lemmy.world

Clint from LGR does further damage control from Helene.

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Khan Noonien Sunday (files.catbox.moe)
submitted 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago) by jawa21 to c/tenforward@lemmy.world

Yeah, I'm reposting because it's been months. Sue me, but talk to my lawyer first:

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I Want to Give Up (lemmy.sdf.org)
submitted 3 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/politicalmemes@lemmy.world
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submitted 3 weeks ago by jawa21 to c/politicalmemes@lemmy.world

Trump winning supports the genocide of every LGBTQ+ person in all of North America, be it directly or indirectly. No one wants what is happening in Gaza. But, I have to say the potential genocide (in the sense of complete erasure of culture as well as open murders with little to no consequences sense) here is even higher.

I have the unfortunate circumstance of being a trans woman in GA. I already have had to completely shut off most contact with people, both work and personal.

I’ve already had rocks thrown at me in an attempt to kill me (this was years ago, even). I already feel like I have to carry a gun. If things go the way they seem, I will even have to order in groceries because it will further empower the people that hate my existence.

The foreign policy is shit, no question. However, I don’t like the possibility of being raped and murdered by some asshole that thinks he understands Co² emissions after watching some video.

I have a lot to say here, especially as a very blue collar machinist. I will refrain, though.

In conclusion: by “avoiding” the genocide in Gaza (which would have in my opinion had a much higher chance of being resolved with Democratic policies), you have also doomed people like me to maybe live in fear for the rest of our lives.

[-] jawa21 125 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Never underestimate the bandwidth of a station wagon full of tapes hurtling down the hiway.

[-] jawa21 126 points 1 month ago

It's just cool to see Lemmy in any search result. It kind of reinforces that what we are doing here matters. Downside is that if an instance goes down, only a potential archive is there.

[-] jawa21 76 points 1 month ago

OK this hilarious. Guess who owns this domain. It is Sky UK

[-] jawa21 163 points 1 month ago

Trump absolutely obliterated profits from manufacturing with the steel tariffs. That's the whole reason that I'm struggling really hard right now. It forced me to order even lower quality steel because as the buyer, you're the one paying the markups. It isn't the affected country. This forced me to really put my limited metallurgical knowledge to the test because I had to ship critical components that wouldn't fail to the best of my ability. I had to adjust everything from tool paths to cutting times because they both affect the integrity of the material. I already had to charge way more for the parts I make because I'm not in India or China making $2/hr. I really hate to say it, but American made steel is just too expensive and I can get it from Japan for maybe 3/4 the price. China is even cheaper with nearly the same quality. And, no, I don't order it directly shipped. There are distributors.

I've been screaming at colleagues for years now that Trump has absolutely no clue about real world manufacturing or how it works. He wants to destroy NAFTA, which would absolutely destroy the supply chain I rely on for non-metallic (mostly glass-filled plastics) materials. I make a fair amount of G-10 and G-11 fiberglass parts for nuclear power - from GE, to Hitachi, WestingHouse, to (oddly) Mitsubishi. Want to talk about how nuclear is expensive already? Yeah, go ahead and erase NAFTA. It would go from improbable and financially impractical to absolutely impossible. Get an order from some local business to make some parts? You have to charge at least an estimate of $70/hour just for labor and machine time. With the tariffs, I've had to bump that to about $90/hour.

However, because the costs for me have gone up so much I've had to go from making money to paying to live. I have the skill, equipment, and knowledge to run a machine shop by myself. That orange fuck set it up that if I didn't already have well-established long term contracts, I'd be in a ditch after selling my dog for a month's worth of food. Trump knowing manufacturing, or how it impacts the manufacturers? Get the fuck out.

Sincerely, A trans woman that has been in manufacturing her whole life.

Source: Being a 20+ year career machinist.

[-] jawa21 63 points 2 months ago

Were you trying to kiss yourself in the mirror?

[-] jawa21 87 points 2 months ago

This is all funny until you do it. Trying this kind of shit in 2009 as I was starting to fully transition got me a full swing baseball bat to my hip. I laid there for maybe 30 mins before I could crawl to a phone.

From a safety standpoint, please don't do this. Just flip them off as you walk away and then vote as if your life depends on it, because it just may.

[-] jawa21 85 points 2 months ago

Missed opportunity to have one guy yelling ":!q"

[-] jawa21 79 points 2 months ago

I don't understand someone having such a blown out pallet that they can't tell the difference. They are markedly different.

[-] jawa21 71 points 3 months ago

Al will take over the world with his magic.

[-] jawa21 64 points 5 months ago

Console output with status of the current operation, including error and warning messages

[-] jawa21 126 points 6 months ago

I think this is it. I am so fucking sick of being politically aware. I am tired of knowing that most of the bullshit in the US was caused by Jerry Falwell standing to lose money from desegregation. I am tired of being trans in an idiot state governed by those that fuckers he influenced over 50 years ago. I am tired of only being able to vote or hold a sign. This whole thing is fucked.

I am tired of having literal rocks thrown at me if I dare to speak when my voice doesn't match my presented gender. I am tired of being told that I shouldn't exist. I am tired of being completely ignored at work even with over 20 years in the trade.

I don't know why this sent me over the edge reading this, but I am so ready to cash out my savings and live in a dark bunker, letting an ignorance of this garbage's existence wash over me.

I say this with all of my being: The GOP and neo nazis like this fucker can sit on it and spin.

[-] jawa21 167 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago)

I really wish this didn't have a giant kernel of truth to it. I've had to leave so many tables because such a large percentage of people insist on making it weird, that I largely have given up.

On more than one occasion, there has been a dude that intentionally played a lesbian character upon learning that I would be playing and not so subtly directed the million unnecessary sexual advances at me in an indirect manner.

Apart from that general incel style bullshit, there seems to always be a fucking white knight nice guy that refuses to see past my rl gender and acknowledge that I am playing something like a male half orc stereotypical barbarian.

D&D has been a huge passion of mine since the 2e days, and I really understand that it draws in people that tend to be socially inexperienced and/or impeded in some way (hell, I'm one of them), but at this point I am trying to play with 40+ year-old men that are fine in social situations outside of the game, but once the session starts they immediately get creepy.

I know this is long and ranting, but I think there are a lot of people that need to hear it. Even if the overall tone of the game is light-hearted and silly, you still need to be a fucking adult when interacting with other adults.

I know when you are pretending to look at your phone as an excuse to stare at my tits. Stop.

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