Hey all! There is a certain thing that I noticed a long time ago, but recently experienced again yesterday while playing wipeOut, a fast paced futuristic racing game.
I, as a lot of people, often struggle with letting go, or trusting myself to be well without actively taking control or solving things.
I have learned however, that to heal and grow as a person it is important to trust your instincts, your body and your inner processes and sometimes let things be and let go of control.
There is no more fitting exercise in this than growing in certain challenging games. I mostly experience this through wipeout or sometimes hard platformers, but I suspect that people who like soulslikes often feel the same sensation: you can grind a hard part as long as you like, but the moment you start letting go and trust the experience you have built throughout your attempts is when you suddenly start doing what you believed to be impossible.
And now it goes even further. I start a new time trial in wipeOut that is seemingly impossible to achieve. My first attempt is a whopping 10 seconds too slow. But instead of disappearing, I smile and look forward to the growing experience. Because I already know I can do this. I just need to let my body process this, experience all the hard corners and quick shifts. And while calmly doing so, often even listening to a podcast or some music on the side, it indeed does happen that way. And when you finally beat the time, you do it with 1 second to spare, and it didn't even feel that hard. Just a logical conclusion from a process of learning, growth and trust.
Of course this doesn't always work. I often get too focused on almost winning and become overly conscious and start making mistakes. And some challenges just are too hard / not made for you and it is OK to let go then. But even in that case, letting go after calmly growing to my limit feels satisfying, as I know I gave it a chance.
These experiences give me trust in other processes in my life: healing from fears, mental barriers, mourning, learning new skills. It's a great thing that I wanted to share.
A very different vibe, but
A Grand Don't Come For Free - The Streets
The songs on this album are all good, but as a whole, this is one of my favorite albums ever. I'm not even really into this genre (rap / hiphop...) but the story it tells and the way it delivers is so human and recognizable that it is ingrained in my soul forever.
Life, falling in and out of love, friends, doubts, it is all delivered in such a pure and honest way. The final song is just the cherry on top and has one of the biggest catharsis moments in any music.