vapeloki

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[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 2 points 1 week ago

Thank you! While my dad would shrug off questions like those, you helped a lot!

I asked him questions along the lines of “Are you in pain? Are you scared? What is worrying you the most right now?”

I just wrote with Mom. She is currently at the hospital. As I have no a visit origanized for tomorrow, i did something that would never have crossed my mind. I asked if he has some wishes, i now he hates the hospital foot. He wished for cake. Fucking cake.

I don't know why, but I am sitting here, crying in relieve. Suddenly, it doesn't seem to far fetched i am able to "survive" a visit without meltdown, panic attacks or other shenanigans my brain throws at me.

Thank you stranger on the internet. Thank you!

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 1 points 1 week ago

I fear as much. Thats the reason i am asking for help. I am not asking for "should i do it or not", that is not the point.

No, i am asking because i am having meltdowns, lock-ups in this case, just imaging what this visit will look like. So i do what i know helps: Rationalizing.

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 2 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

Thanks! I think this is the closest i can relate to currently.

My dad and I, our relationship was "special". At least for other people. We didn't talk that much (besides politics), but we loved to do stuff together like building a huge model train-track in the basement, traveling, building furniture.

We don't do phone calls for small talk, hell we don't do small talk. I am pretty sure he is on the spectrum too.

And knowing - that after years of "confinement" in his own 4 walls - he is glad to know, that this will have an end not to far down the road, i am not to much worried about him.

But not visiting him, not giving him and me the chance for some final conversations, no way.

As mentioned in another comment, i am locking up just thinking about the possible scenarios.

I suspect he had the same issue with interactions as me and would’ve wanted me there, but wouldn’t have been able to say it

You brought me to this thought, and it helped. I now have at least organized that my GF will visit my dad with me tomorrow. And if she as to drive me in on a wheelbarrow...

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 1 points 1 week ago

I would if i could. I am currently not able to. I just lock up ... rationalizing helps in such cases for me.

All this feedback here helps. I moved a step further today. I will visit him tomorrow. My spouse will go with me, drive me, keep me company.

I am still panicking, and i am still locking up imagining the situation. But one step after another.

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 2 points 1 week ago

Thank you!

When my father was diagnosed with MND, I had 5 years to decide what to do. The extra time still didn’t make the decisions any easier.

We all knew, that this would come, for around 2 years now. I put this thought away, and ignored this fact for those 2 years.

It really depends on what his strengths are, and what he enjoys doing.

That may be one of my issues. What he loved to do, and we have done together, is stuff like building furniture or traveling. Ever since the first cancer diagnosis, he was not able to do that anymore. And since he needs Oxygen, he only left the house for doctor visits.

I think he is glad, that the end is near. He told my mother, asked why is was moved to the palliative care unit, it is nothing bad, it just because he would have more peace and quiet there.

We are both not the biggest talkers. Or silent sitters. We did not meet just for talking, and if it gets silent, we just leave, do stuff on our own.

 

Hey all,

I don't know what to do, and need some advice.

Today I received the information that my father was moved to the palliative ward. He was in the hospital since a few days.

He had lung cancer, and lost half of his lung, now the tumor is back and restricting the remaining half.

He is dying. The doctors don't know when, and if there are days weeks or months left. Nothing to do but to make hin as comfortable and pain free as possible.

I want to visit him badly. But I am panicking already just thinking about what to say or what to do. I could call him but me, taking on the phone..., and the main issue remains, what should I say?

I am bad at social interaction, yeah. I live with that. But this situation is wo much worse I ever could imagine.

I love my dad. He is one of the most important persons in my life. Loosing him will of course be painful, but being in a situation where I can get the call every day, every minute ...

I am not able to work, think, sleep or be around other people very long.

Does anybody here have some advice?

UPDATE1:

Thank you all so much for your feedback!

TLDR: I organized a visit tomorrow, and made sure i will go through.

First, i want to clarify my issue, as yesterday i was rather vague: This is not a question about "to go or not to go". I am experiencing meltdowns on the pure thought of "what happens during the visit". I just lock up. That is nothing rationale. I have to overcome those meltdowns - and that is why i am asking for advice.

Your feedback helped a lot during this process. While i am still not at a point, where i don't freeze, not doing so would for sure not come to any good.

I asked my spouse to go with me tomorrow. She will make sure that i will go through. Also, i don't have to worry about medication to much ( I get medical cannabis), as she will drive me home if needed.

Again, thank you all! And every feedback is still welcome, it really really helps!

UPDATE2: I was in the hospital today. While yesterday he was doing well the day started off with a message that we should hurry. He was sleeping much, his morphine dose is high, but the tine he was awake hi listen to our conversation, my sister and brother where there, my mother. Hi talked not much, but talking is hard for him. When I talked he made jokes.

My GF told me, that after my brother and I left the room and she was alone with him for a few minutes, he told here that it is better this way. Overall we were 5 hours there.

I will be in the hospital tomorrow again. Thank you all again.

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 2 points 1 week ago

Netflix needs some fucked up DRM. Without it Netflix will only work in 720p (maybe 1080?) without HDR.

But that is the usual Linux user experience...

As they have an unlocked bootloader, no Netflix certificate.

So, it will work, but with limits

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 5 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Typo, thanks. Fixed it.

Yes, DuneHD . Pro Vision works well. I use it on a 3D Beamer. ShellyFin in house, plays everything, h264,h265 HDR and 3D content, everything hardware decoded. And this with CoreELEC on it.

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 5 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago) (4 children)

Is Open/CoreELEC OK?

Have a look at the DuneHD box. It's an unlocked android box, CoreELEC support, kann play HDR and 3D content.

That is the cheapest solution I know.

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 37 points 2 weeks ago

That is great! Finally a list media outlets to consume!

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 36 points 2 weeks ago

Nur weil die anderen Redner ihr R nicht gerollt haben, war der Inhalt nicht weniger Volksverhetzung.

Und was ist eigentlich mit diesen Seitenscheitel?

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 12 points 2 weeks ago

Höcke is a Nazi! Höcke is a Nazi!

See, I can. And it is even court approved

[–] vapeloki@lemmy.world 17 points 2 weeks ago

Lokale , spezialisierte, Modelle sind gar keine schlechte Idee. Lokale inference ist billig und klein, geeignete Modelle können helfen z.B. bei der Suche nach Metastasen in Krebs Patienten oder komplexen Diagnosen.

Lokale Modelle! Und das sind keine ChatGPT Bots oder so.

Das ist das was immer übersehen und vermischt wird.

 

Yesterday we took a plant in for emergency care. 12 hours after we moved the plant from soil to hydro she is still alive, and shows no signs of giving up.

 

Today, I received a call from a friend of a friend. One of his plants showed fungus on the leaves, several signs of nutrition burns and deficit symptoms on other leaves.

We took the plant in, and removed it from its soil. 80% of the root was just brown, dead mush.

We put it into hydro as an emergency solution.

Let's hope the girl survives.

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Wir_iel (lemmy.world)
submitted 10 months ago* (last edited 10 months ago) by vapeloki@lemmy.world to c/wir_iel@feddit.org
 

Es ist DEMO Zeit. Auf geht's nazis ärgern.

Heute abend 17:00 in Kusel, das Weidel ist da!

 

Hi all,

two month ago, i received my company car. I chose an i5, as i wanted an EV, need some space, and hate SUVs. I could fit nearly everything optional in the car (besides the air suspension), keep that in mind. Also it is "only" the M40, the rear drive only variant).

As i am from Germany, so no freedom units. Sorry to you over there on the other side of the pond.

I am living in the countryside, and we (my gf also drives the car) have to drive daily, either shopping, she to work, or i travel long distances across Germany.

My first impression on takeover of the car: This is a monster. Not only looks it mean as hell, it is wide and long. Dude. I instantly was glad about parking and lane assistance. I knew the dimensions before hand, but 2m width and over 5 meter of length are much bigger than i had in my mind. This is my only big issue with the car btw. I have a growing blacklist of parking garages and underground parking lots i am not comfortable to drive in.

That out of the way, the car is great. Interior, quality of life features, all well designed. I will only get into a few here, as this will be (mainly) focused on the EV aspect of the car.

Efficency

After using the car for a while, i was surprised by the efficiency of the car. Our regular trips into the neighboring towns, shopping, visting friends, are coming out with around 20KW/km. Autobahn tours with free flowing traffic and a target speed of 130km/h are between 17KW/km and 19KW/km.

With the 82KWh battery pack, ~330km distance in our mixed usage and 80%-10% SoC, are typical.

Charging

Charging was promoted with 205KW and that checks out. I even seen charging rates of 210KW, reported by the car. The maximum charge rate is reached usually between 15% and 55%. On most stations, i can forget to even reach 180KW, but that is more on the state of german charging infrastructure, then on the car.

Using the charge planning feature of the satnav is just a great experience. It keeps stops at a bearable amount of time and recommends target SoC with enough reserve to accounts for possible detours or other delays. Charging stations can be filtert by network, for all those network members. I didn't test this feature, as an all-network charging card is part of the car in my company.

If a charging stop takes longer, on board entertainment is great. Multiplayer games, TV streaming, or offline media, it does not get boring. I have the Bower&Wilkins system and ConnectedDrive. ConnectedDrive is required for the games and streaming features. The HiFi system just transforms your lokal slow charger to a mobile cinema.

Heated and vented seats

Vented and heated seats are great. For range! Instead of heating and cooling the space in the car, roughly equivalent to the space in a German student apartment, using those comfort features and lowering AC gives you a few hundreds Wh. I tested this on some very hot days. I was alone on the car, and set the temperatures to a comfortable value. Without seat venting, this was around 22°C, with seat vending, went up to 25°. This saved ~300Wh/km. I did multiple runs, and the that seemed pretty stable. I will report back after some real cold days, and lets see how the values look.

I have vented and heated seats in the front and heated seats in the back. Both features are optional.

Space

This is the only non-electric feature i will talk about, but if you got this far, you are most likely interested in it.

And the space is amazing, on all levels.

Driver and passenger seat have leg room, you can fit 3 crates of german beer in the room on the passenger side.

The back seats also have enough space. A 2,03 meter friend sits comfortable there, with enough head and leg space.

And then for the trunk. I moved a single household of a friend in 3 tours. Bed, kitchen appliances and his office. The backrest has 3 parts. It took me a while to recognize this. You can lay it flat, and it looks like two pieces, but the center piece as a separate latch. So if you fit in something long (like some cable conduits), you are covered.

Conclusion

I like this car. While it does clearly have not the longest range or the fastes charge reads on the market, i don't find this limiting. Never was i annoyed by a charge break (only by broken chargers...), and on long distances, charging breaks are refreshing.

The 340PS are fun, and sometimes, just pedal to the metal, is just amazing.

And all the comfort features, from vented seats over the gesture media control to the onboard AI voice assistant, are well thought out and implemented.

Hands free driving on the Autobahn is a nice idea, for those who like it, i don't. I use the full steering assistant, but i am not comfortable taking my hands of that round thing in front of me.

Lane Change assist and parking features keep this monster manageable in rush hour traffic on the Autobahn and squeezing into tight parking spots.

But: There is a price. Literally. The car as it is standing in my driveway, comes in with 94k€. I am in the privileged position to get this car as part of my salary. If you can afford this amount of money, and are looking for an EV, give it a look. You get a solid BMW station wagon that drives like an BMW station wagon. It just is fun to drive it. And you get a lot of space. More then in most SUVs out there.

If you have questions, AMA

 

Hi all,

I am trying to go vegan since quite some time. But this is harder for me then first thought.

I am looking for any advice and maybe some had the same hurdles and can give some tips and tricks.

There are two major issues for me currently:

  • I am on the spectrum. Major changes cause me stress.
  • I have to control my B12 input for medical reasons.

The last one is complicated bit I am certain there are good guides out there, maybe someone has one?

The first one on the other side seems unsolvable to me. While I am down to one non-vegan meal in a week, replacing the last one leads into the stress cycle again.

I also tried replacing my stress snacks, for example mixing them with other snacks, and "phase them out", it did not work till now.

So, either I have to find a way to replace my snacks, or get rid of the last non-vegan meal.

Any advice is welcome, giving up is not an option.

Loki

 

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ich_iel (lemmy.world)
submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by vapeloki@lemmy.world to c/ich_iel@feddit.de
 

wenn ich "Söder" höre

 

Hey Leute,

nachdem wir nun endlich die Teil-Legalisierung durch ist und es sich langsam real anfühlt möchte ich ein riesiges DANKE sagen.

Danke, an alle die Jahrzente lang, und viel länger als ich, dafür gekämpft haben.

Danke, an unsere Ampel die das Thema tatsächlich ernst nimmt.

Danke, an die Landesregierungen die sich das noch mal überlegt haben.

2010 und 2014 war ich einer der Petenten für die Cannabis Legalisierung. 2015 habe ich zusammen mit anderen die Ablehnungsbegründung des Petitionssauschusses zu den vorherigen Cannabis Petitionen verwendet, und die Argumente auf Alkohol umgemünzt, um das Verbot von Alkohol zu fordern. Natürlich wurde diese Petition ebenfalls abgelehnt. Aber ich möchte euch ein Zitat aus dieser Ablehnung nicht vorenthalten:

Außerdem sieht sich der Gesetzgeber, auf Grund der kulturellen Verbreitung von Alkohol, nicht in der Lage den Konsum effektiv zu unterbinden.

In den letzten Jahren schwand die Hoffnung, das ich in einem Land leben werde, in dem ich Kiffen kann ohne strafrechtlich verfolgt zu werden.

Und doch, heute stehen wir an diesem Punkt.

Möglich wurde dies durch eine Vielzahl von Faktoren. Die wichtigsten für mich sind:

  • die vielen jungen Menschen die sich politisch engagieren. Die Einflussnahme der Jugendorganisationen auf ihre Mutter Parteien hat sehr viel dazu beigetragen
  • Die vielen Aktivisten die Außerhalb der Politik für die Legalisierung gekämpft haben (Grüße gehen raus an Richter Müller)
  • Ein Gesundheitsminister der Fakten-Basiert handelt und nicht aus politischem Kalkül oder Populismus

Ich wünsche euch allen schon mal einen sehr fröhlichen 01.04.2024 und bitte, hört nicht auf zu kämpfen. Wir brauchen die zweiten Säule, und natürlich die komplette Freigabe sobald die Versuchsprojekte erfolgreich waren.

Dazu gehört natürlich auch das CDU, CSU und AfD nicht an die Macht kommen dürfen. Sonst wird daraus garantiert nichts.

Geht wählen! Wählt Parteien die uns unterstützen werden, und schaut euch genau an was da die angeblich Christlichen Parteien so abziehen.

So Long, Loki

 

Am i to late for the stock photo memes?

 
 

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/110673

Hey all,

i want to hack a portable AC. The devices communicates via UART between Mainboard and control unit (LCD and Buttons). As we still want to use the original controls, i had the idea to put an ESP32 in the middle of the communication (using UART2 for the mainboard and UART3 for the control board).

I don't want to reverse engineer the whole protocol, only the relevant parts. So, i need a way to forward all messages in both directions, to make this work as it should.

Has anybody done such a thing already? Or has any tips how to do it.

I'm fluent in C++, so there is not barrier here, but i am new to the codebase of ESPHome

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