I am currently in a social event and I am too exhausted to have conversations, so I figured I just pretend I'm busy texting by writing this post. I have to stay here for at least two more hours and I have two more (social) things to do tomorrow.. one of them I'll probably cancel because it is just too much but I did not think of an excuse yet..
I feel dishonest and I really hate it, but I also didn't have really good experiences coming out as autistic.. it has never felt accomodating and often pretty invalidating.
My depression has been hitting harder than usual, which is extra hard because I have to pretend I am okay just to avoid interactions I can't handle right now.
So anywhere I'm not even trying to make a point here I just need something to keep be busy and not make me look weird. Anyways, wish me luck idk, I'm really not enjoying life a lot rn :I
Edit: thanks a lot everyone! I read the replies several times, it has been reassuring and as a plus it kept me busy yesterday. :)
Would you feel dishonest if you had to cancel plans because of not feeling well? feeling well isnt just physical health but also mental health. if you are too exhausted to have conversations, you probably need some rest from social situations. Would you go to this social thing if you had a headache?
Dont take my words as the thing that will 100% work for you, im writing this based on what works for me and each person has diffrent needs.
I wish you to feel better soon OP