I have no intention. I don't know where this will land, what community it will be shuffled to. This is how most of my posts start. I just express myself authentically and ny art is made. A lot of people don't understand my art. That is part of the design of my art. There is a function to man on the cross: it gets the bad Romans to oust themselves, and thus the highest games of society are played.
I'm not diagnosised with any ASD, though doctors have talked to me at length about being on the spectrum, and staff have given me much literature on the subject. The joke is, they're aware I'll have to flee to Canada sometime, because I are the definition of neurodivergent, and thus must be used as bait. Is that what's happening? I had a breakdown in college and lied to my ROTC cadre and ever since, I don't know what reality is. But I have faith in God, whatever phenomena that word is describing, and thus I know God is good.
Something I learned early in my strange neurospicy life is that what I understood as my "reality" was really a composition of a particular "reality tunnel," which was part of me learning bigger picture things that led to me learning that a key part of autism has to to with the nature of our attention coordination. This was early reading in my MKULTRA hullabaloo:
https://www.reddit.com/r/ShrugLifeSyndicate/s/I6gLbPEl7Q
But there's this concept that beings can be in alternate states of consciousness that are dependent on individuality and group processing, like a flock of birds or a school of fish are processing reality differently than we are as humans, similarly individual humans are processing reality in a different way than the masses, and this is PART of what autism is.
...I saw where this post MUST go about three paragraphs ago, and I just carried it there as "God" carried me here, and in that, one must understand that "the community" has alternate modes of communication that one on one individual communication can happen. And by this, I mean, if you have an addiction, "the community" will learn of it, and then "the community" has alternate ways of saying things to parts of itself that most people are not even fully conscious of, but I have this post that may illuminate the nature of this phenomenon. I think this is all I need to say to spark the wires in the heads that need to be lit up.
I am sorry, I forgot to link:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1QoeKMD5dwnWBB6gHOFgY4uKJOXKg8CPGDu-dE5UsisQ/edit?usp=drivesdk
That's okay. I prefer to get your distillation of whatever these resources are. its too much research for me to take on.
You've replied three times and I am in a weird state where I find significance to every minute detail, as my traumas have made me, but I read your words and don't know how to continue because my brain is gud and bed. Double-edged sword, but I like your energy, so I offer courteous energy in exchange. Is this stimulus response? Am I that which I criticize? Well, I'm at least aware enough to understand that I see everything through the lens of my self. Refracting impacting retracting none the fun of the gun is in bang if inflection into you, the intrusion be infection you see or growth you C. But that's just what light is, and that's all I have without giving forty paragraphs that may be interpreted as nonsense. Aman once replied to me with 20k word replies that actually fucked up the Reddit font feature so they would be next to intelligible, how the symbols got distorted. I don't know what normal is, so I dunno what is right to say. I say as I am and sense and feel. Beetlejuice Beetlejuice beetlejuice!
...well that's where my mind is.
I wouldn't say there is much of a deeper meaning to anything that I'm saying.
I'm just being clear that I'm satisfied with your thought without you needing to qualify it with the referring texts. Totally just in a a friendly way.
Thank you. Every word read or typed has a "depth" to it, and I see bigger picture patterns. I don't know anything, butI know something bigger is going on around me. I lied to the United States Military while being aided by God that I took an oath to serve, and up has been down and dark has been light and fire has been water, so I just want to say your skillful neutrality has an abundance of warmth.
thank you for the kind compliment