I don't know where to post this (or if I should, but I'm lost). Skip to the end for the "too long, didn't read" version.
So, this may sound kind of crazy, and maybe I am. I live in a van, and I managed to live 3 months in the outback, some 120km west of Bourke. No one lives there, I didn't even find signs of humans where I was staying. I thought I was safe.
But I didn't know they round up the sheep by plane, so eventually they saw the van from the plane and I was told I probably should go since this is so weird.
I was going every 3 weeks or a month to Bourke to buy food and get water. It was literally the only time in my life I felt really happy. I've always struggled with depression, but now I understand that my problem is other people. If I'm alone, I can have a (mentally) normal life like other humans. This has been 2 months ago. I still haven't recovered after experiencing happiness for the first time. Life has lost all meaning and I'm just living because I'm not dead. I have to do something or go back. But I can't do what I did again. I'll live in fear of being found out.
So I want to find a property for sale that's far from people, but close enough that I can travel for food (maybe up to 200km), for maybe a maximum of $150k, but hopefully less. It can be pretty small, as long as no one can kick me out and it's far away from people. I can't find anything like that, or even much more expensive. I called a real estate agent in Bourke and he said it's impossible, only people who know people, and only massive lands. Unfortunately I found I'm incompetent in self sufficiency (I can hunt but I didn't have the courage to kill and I couldn't find plants to eat there), so it needs to be close enough to a town. To be clear, people are what I'm afraid of. I need to feel safe, to know I won't see any human, and no human will see me.
So, tl,dr:
I need a piece of land, even if small, for hopefully less than $150k, a maximum of 200km from the nearest town, but with no one around the land. Better if it's in the outback. Is there some kind of professional I can talk about that? I am completely ignorant of these tings.
I may remove this post, since I don't know if I should be posting this. But thanks for any help. The story is a lot longer than that, but I guess it's enough info.
I don't know if I can help with the land purchase.
But, maybe look at other areas, there are plenty of very private properties, that are not so far away. My brother has one. Only 10 minutes from a pub and a store, and only half an hour from a large regional city. It sits against a state forest and NOBODY ever comes up his drive. He's at the end of a long road, and it's so private and perfectly secluded.
However, I also acknowledge the beauty and peace of NOBODY around, in the full desert, like you describe. Where you can really feel at peace. Lay in the sun, walk quietly, relax, breathe, be calm.
I truly hope you find something for yourself. It would be amazing.
Yeah, it's the NOBODY stuff that interests me. 10 minutes from a pub is probably not very safe. Is it close to Dalby? There's a few kind of like that there.