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Hello pppeeoples:3

new hexbear user here, long time communist, definitely a lurker cause im way too insecure than i should be cause of self image problems..

I'm from eastern europe and I'm glad to join you!! I like making new friends and helping world revolution, I also advocate about COVID to basically everyone to the point I'm annoying cause dear ones to me are disabled because of it. I also like touching grass but I'm basically in concrete hell, so not really possible:/ I like eink stuff a lot and own several ereaders, I am a Linux wizard, and I'm really into reading theory but also gay lesbian fics (dialectic), also Katalepsis is peak go read it. Most of the time I'm suffering from impostor syndrome so I'm quiet and dont say my opinions out loud because I dont feel like they're worth saying, but otherwise I'm very vocal and passionate about making the world a better place. I fall into doomerism easily which is why I'm trying to get more hopium from others..

It's really hard to characterize myself but it's a good exercise as it makes me feel like a person cause most of the time I go through the motions and just dissociate from myself and identity is well fucking weird all the time lol so I'm trying to affirm the fact I'm a real person by interacting with others outside my head. Idk if this resonates with anyone but I'm glad if anyone reads this in the first place :3 i hope to get to know y'all better. I constantly go through some stressful traumatic thing every few months at this rate and feel like I'm going to crack a little, but the horrors persist and so do I. I hate everything in real life and I'm doing omega suppression of my personality and gender so nothings going well for me and I feel like I have to make life defining choices every 2 months and mostly just a lot of bad shit. Anyways enough of that, see y'all:3 oh and I also have aphantasia and feel drained by the horrors of job seeking and working

Things I want in the near future: hiking in the mountains, hrt, a commie therapist