Hello pppeeoples:3
new hexbear user here, long time communist, definitely a lurker cause im way too insecure than i should be cause of self image problems..
I'm from eastern europe and I'm glad to join you!! I like making new friends and helping world revolution, I also advocate about COVID to basically everyone to the point I'm annoying cause dear ones to me are disabled because of it. I also like touching grass but I'm basically in concrete hell, so not really possible:/ I like eink stuff a lot and own several ereaders, I am a Linux wizard, and I'm really into reading theory but also gay lesbian fics (dialectic), also Katalepsis is peak go read it. Most of the time I'm suffering from impostor syndrome so I'm quiet and dont say my opinions out loud because I dont feel like they're worth saying, but otherwise I'm very vocal and passionate about making the world a better place. I fall into doomerism easily which is why I'm trying to get more hopium from others..
It's really hard to characterize myself but it's a good exercise as it makes me feel like a person cause most of the time I go through the motions and just dissociate from myself and identity is well fucking weird all the time lol so I'm trying to affirm the fact I'm a real person by interacting with others outside my head. Idk if this resonates with anyone but I'm glad if anyone reads this in the first place :3 i hope to get to know y'all better. I constantly go through some stressful traumatic thing every few months at this rate and feel like I'm going to crack a little, but the horrors persist and so do I. I hate everything in real life and I'm doing omega suppression of my personality and gender so nothings going well for me and I feel like I have to make life defining choices every 2 months and mostly just a lot of bad shit. Anyways enough of that, see y'all:3 oh and I also have aphantasia and feel drained by the horrors of job seeking and working
Things I want in the near future: hiking in the mountains, hrt, a commie therapist
Rationally I know that, but it's hard to hold on without an irl community tbh, living in bumfuck post-socialist uber reactionary place isn't exactly helping, and the last year has just been hell so.. feels like things just keep getting worse individually and globally, wish I could do more but there is no org in this country lol
i know the feel. i'm from a post-comecon country myself, and it's not pretty. ((( though i hope things will improve again someday.
are there perhaps some non-explicitly political avenues for community organising where you live (queer groups or just mutual aid in general)? it may be a way for you to find some unexpected comrades or create them. mutual aid work, especially, is often very conducive to this, as well as just being good for one's soul. it also has the added benefit of providing contacts that may help if the "invisible hand" decides to screw you over even more.
in any case, best of luck and best of hope! the reason why our régimes are so focused on spreading reactionary garbage is because they're scared of us, lol
There is like a queer group in my city but it's just shitlibs that love NATO and we need more EU and austerity and that will bring queer rights. They serve no political purpose to the EU anymore so they're just ignored by the ruling class lol, but that doesn't stop them from being rabid turboliberals sadly. Mutual aid doesn't exist here, and the only "leftists" is a group of 10 gonzaloites lmao.