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This community is for people with depression. Memes and general discussion about depression are encouraged and welcome.

Bi-polar people are also allowed to post here but only sometimes.(joke)

This community is aimed at being inclusive for all people with depression and as such should be free of racism, homophobia, trans-phobia, sexism, patriarch and all other forms of hate-speech.

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Some resources posted from helpful people:

Therapy is not for everyone, check out peer counseling instead: https://www.americanmentalwellness.org/intervention/peer-support/

Find health professionals: https://www.psychologytoday.com/

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Im only good for being thrown away (sopuli.xyz)

submitted 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) by bellly@sopuli.xyz to c/depression_now@lemmy.world

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No one will ever care for me the way I care for them. There must be something so fundamentally repulsive about me, that people are willing to use me but the moment I try to open up I get cast aside. I dont blame them. No one wants a burden in their life. Maybe things could be different if I wasnt so ugly. But it wouldn't really matter, because id still be broken beyond repair. I guess my father was right when he said no one would ever love me. He was right and it hurts. I already know that I will eventually kill myself. Im not sure how to write a suicide note, but if it's bad I at least won't have to live with it

Edit: and before anyone says the "don't kill yourself, I care blah blah" bullshit platitudes: you do not know me. The person you are saying that to is some imaginary person you just made up in your head. A person who is "good enough" and "able to be loved", and whatever other nonsense you thought of. But I am not that person. You wouldn't know that, though. Because you do not know me.

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[–] bellly@sopuli.xyz 5 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I've been depressed and have had anxiety since I was around 8, at 13 I developed trichotillomania, and went started therapy when i was 14. At 15 I moved out of my parents house, because my father is an alcoholic and my mother schizophrenic. Ive been on various antidepressants, none worked. Ive had multiple hospital stays. I applied to art school last year, I text and meet my friends regularly, Ive started going to events around my city, I read one hour before bed, I drink enough water, I do yoga, I went on a date this week. Im still worthless and broken. Maybe some stupid fuckhead will tell me that I haven't tried hard enough yet. I hope I dont have to "celebrate" my birthday again this year.