My guilt comes from a variety of sources: lesbians saying that they don’t care about size (which is perfectly valid), women with big bosoms complaining about the pains that they cause (also valid), and scientists finding a correlation between misogynistic boys and a preference for enormous knockers. I’ve even read that some girls have ended their lives over dissatisfaction with their sizes. Basically, I have this impression that a preference for massive mammaries is something that only ‘trashy straight boys’ have, therefore I feel guilty by association.
That said, I try not to be a jerk either: I don’t shun or mistreat ladies for having small breasts, and I wouldn’t fight tooth and nail to prevent somebody from getting a reduction either. As long as she is happier with her smaller breasts, that’s great! I’m happy for her! And I don’t mind being friends with somebody who has small breasts either! So I like to think that I am not that shallow of a person. Also, maybe this is usual but I tend to associate big boobs with power and I would much rather be dominated by huge honkers than vice versa.
None of this erases my guilt, though.
Is my preference a problem that I should try to fix or am I worrying too much?
Yeah, this is another…issue…that I wanted to discuss later. I try not to let my lust override my normal social interactions, and I try not to forget that women are more than just bodies parts…but I have this, uh…weird kink where I am more turned on if I can’t see the receiving lady’s face. There is just something about obsessing over a lady’s other body parts that I find especially arousing, and I can’t explain why.
I feel awful saying it because it really sounds like I get turned on objectifying others, but like I said: I try not to let my fetishes override my normal social interactions; I like to think that I can still wake up from my weird fantasies and treat bathykolpian women like ordinary people again.
Are you gonna have to bonk me now?
That's fair, and I think experience will mold it away from rigid kinks and hard preference to a more holistic and realistic system of desires and understanding of your preferences. At least it did for me. I still have some preferences I began with like big boobs, but the expansion of my tastes has done me wonders, and it's shaped my understanding of my desires into a far more neutral and open minded stance. When I find someone hot I normally wouldn't now I just roll with it, and that makes me far more comfortable finding what normally attracts me hot