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Pseudo-straight pseudo-male here, I can say pretty confidently that I don't think this is a toxic masculinity issue. Literally nobody ever taught me that it was important to be beautiful, I only figured that out myself as an adult.

I honestly think it's kinda fucked up but it's really a failing of society as a whole rather than masculinity in general. I find the whole thing really sick and it's made me a bit antisocial. In public, women smile at me when I've shaved my face and they give me dead or suspicious eyes when I don't. It just makes me feel like everyone is so fake. I rarely shave my face since realizing that because I want people to treat me how they would treat anyone rather than giving me special treatment because they're vaguely attracted to me. I've gotten so sick with this that I find myself treating beautiful people worse. So uhh, factor that into your calculations. Is that toxic masculinity? I forgot where I was going with this.