That was my childhood.

I wanted to be a musician, but instruments were expensive.

Now I'm a software developer, and depakene killed my rhythm sense and absolute pitch, so best I can do is put together some demo that underrepresents the capabilities of my software synthesizers. (I really need to switch anti-seizure medications, as it also acts as an ADHD worsener, a sleep worsener (melatonin does negate it for the most part, except for the harder wake-up times), and an anti-psychiatry argument (it's also a mood stabilizer, which I don't need), but I don't have money for private doctors, public healthcare in our country only exists as a last resort and a show case)