Oh hey that was me for over 15 years!

I'm transfem now and happier than I've ever been.

With all of that being said, feel things out. Gender isn't a race to a goal, it's who you are and what that means for you. It took 3 separate personality crises before working through the fear and anxiety of it all. Even if you're just cis, what's important is that you get to be yourself.