So my last week was pretty bad. even worse than the one before. i didnt find any chance to practive self care, and stress just grew more and more. im probably in a depressive episode by now aswell, which seriously impacts my rather healthy social life, since my anxiety is now on rampage. this is double bad since there are many events, and social things i would like to do. i spend the weekend to accept that i have to drop all of those plans and focus on my mental health. hope you week have been better.

oh i kinda want to make a personal goal aswell. my personal goal is to catch up on my chores as much as i can and then reward myself with well earned alone time, and be aware that this is a good thing, and i am allowed to be a little goblin in my little cave form time to time ^^

I signed up for a seminar across the country soon. Thought colleagues would join but they didn't. Now I actually want to cancel it, because of the train ride and anxiety about the whole thing.

I don't know what to do..