Just can't shake the blues. No idea what's wrong specifically, just a grey cloud hanging over me.

I think the isolation might be getting to me. I don't normally speak to a friend more than once or so a fortnight.

That's a big part of work for me. I miss being around people. I feel alive when I'm around people. I'm getting by on the fumes of an oily rag so going out and doing stuff isn't really possible.

Just gotta be patient.

/vent

Here's the dinner report after the husband's folks came for dinner.

So it mostly went to plan. After dinner and I had cleaned up I sat down to do some needle work but bro was bored and he'd been very sick, just came out of hospital, so I took pity on him. After he insulted me just a little and I pushed back a little I asked him if he reads audiobooks, as that may be an easy way for him to do an interesting activity. He said they always send him to sleep. My radar immediately pinged real loud, I'm always on the alert for when he or others talk about their experience in cults. I went on to explain that the books he was listening to were designed to relax him and even send to him sleep. I explained how the tapes were relaxing, why the makers of the tapes did that and how those books differ to regular audio recordings of regular novels and nonfiction books. I never once used a value judgement or trigger word. I never mentioned the cult nor any people in the cult, I kept it fact based and impersonal. He listened with interest and very intently.

I'm a very good cult deprogrammer.

Morning cuddles

This is an old throwback now: Does anyone remember me complaining about some "Mates" Who had kids and made some really distasteful "Jokes" back when we were still struggling ourselves? Something about throwing their baby in the bin or something cause he was frustrating them? Well, got a bit of an update on them.

Drama

They are struggling. Hard. Her mental health is in the bin, and he is pushed for time having taken a job that seems him out of the house from 5am till 6 or 7 pm. Add another kid to the mix and its not going well. he made a joke about "Needing more support". I laughed cause we also don't have family around us. But I think it was kind of a hint and I just.... fucking no chance. I didn't say anything, but there is NO way we're stepping into that mess.

Almost everything that's going wrong was visible from a mile away before they made the decision. Her mental health is crap cause her family fucking suck, but she does running back to them every time. They threw a dog and another baby on top of the first one who I think has some development issues. The whole thing is a mess and i know it sounds cruel, but there's no way to help them without them trying to suck you into the vortex of their drama. I've made that mistake 2 or 3 times before, I'm not making it a 4th time. If you could just drop off a meal or babysit for a bit to help without hearing how horrible everything is and leaving feeling worse for having done a nice thing..

I feel sorry for them, but at what point do you go "You've kind of shot yourself in the foot there, can you please not bleed on my kitchen floor?"

Dinner report part 2.

As I wrote below bro has been in hospital and he really is poorly, no denying that, even hypochondriacs get sick. Husband's mother was there, she's elderly now, and she was complaining she was so tired from visiting bro in hospital everyday. It's a 45 min drive there .

I got 🙄 and reminded her the doctors told her to only visit every second day. She was so angry that she couldn't play victim. I do not care, I don't think the others did either.

She asked if she could take food home, I gave her the scrapings off her own plate and put them in an old washed take away container. She didn't get a carry bag either. She doesn't get meals to take home anymore , not after her slanderous games.

I just do. not. care.

slipped on a wet floor and fell face first towards the hardwood dining table. my hand managed to catch the side of the table with about 10cm to spare before I smashed my forehead. Suspect with the speed it woulda at least knocked me out. Sad to report I neither saw the light nor had my life flash before my eyes.

Happy New Year everyone!

Trampoline dude wanted to go on a date. I did not. We are not talking anymore. He only wants to talk to me for romantic purposes it seems.

I'm sad to lose what we had. We had a similar music taste and bounced music off of one another. He also played the game I was obsessed with as a child.

I made scones. Cheese, pepper & chives and pumpkin & chilli flakes. All very delicious. I'm tired now.

Gratitude thread

I'm grateful for the lollies at work today. Also grateful for the heater and going to see friends later.

I love how TPG try to stop you from accessing piracy websites, and it takes 1 min to circumvent their protection.

The Remuneration Tribunal that determines the wages of Victorian politicians has just released it's determination. The government which has a policy that govt. sector employees should have wage rises capped at 3% has just been awarded 3.5% raises for themselves.

Good Morning everyone

I thought I’d check out the tax return forms just got fun but the ATO website is being smashed at the moment.

Anyway I can’t lodge it till I get the pre fill information uploaded by various places.

Don’t imagine I’m going to get much back this year if last year was anything to go by.

I slept in for forty minutes so why do i feel more tired

pasta with tomato and chicken for dins

Now that it's July, I'm seeing so many users with a cake next to their name because of how many people joined in June and july after reddit banned 3rd party apps